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thedevilwithin

thedevilwithin

anima vestra
Oct 4, 2023
172
it was my birthday about a week ago and i just felt empty really. no one remembered, no big deal i expected that. i don't have many people in my life anyway. birthdays for me make me reflect on how shit my life has been. i feel this barrier around me and it makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone. i just wish i was normal.
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
1,217
Happy late birthday
I don't do much on my birthdays either. I just lay in bed and rot. Nothing to celebrate
 
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thedevilwithin

thedevilwithin

anima vestra
Oct 4, 2023
172
Happy late birthday
I don't do much on my birthdays either. I just lay in bed and rot. Nothing to celebrate
thank you🖤

same honestly. that's exactly what i did.
 
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Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,649
my birthday was just over a month ago, I got a Chinese takeaway chili shredded chicken for Teatime, 100£ from my mum with which I bought clothes, 100£ off my dad of which i bought weed, i just got high on my birthday
 
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bipbapbop

Experienced
Mar 7, 2024
276
Happy belated!

I used to stay home and cry on my bday (18 years running!) because I thought I was afraid of death. Turns out I'm scared of life.
 
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crystal_meth97

crystal_meth97

Nie mam zamiaru się poddać
May 1, 2024
154
I don't really celebrate my birthday, as I don't see it as important. My parents buy me cake and flowers, the gift I want or what they think I'd like if I don't ask for anything, and sometimes I go out with my mom for the occasion if she's not busy, but nothing big. I only have a few online friends and they wish me "happy birthday".
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,360
I do what I can to try and forget it's my birthday.
 
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scary

find your own way to the Knife
May 1, 2024
173
Happy belated birthday. Mine was Sunday and I feel/do the exact same. Nothing special and like you said its just a day to reflect how bad its gotten and spiral
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
Happy belated birthday! 🎉 Mine was back in September. I eat steak
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I don't really celebrate my birthday that much. At most all I get is cake but, from the following years of my birthday, that will stop as my parents realised that getting me a cake for my birthday isn't allowed in their religion hence why they said they'll stop buying cakes for anybody's birthdays. But yeah, I personally just don't bother with birthdays because I don't find it to be something to bother with
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,191
It's just another day for me, a birthday just shows how I've unfortunately suffered for yet another year. That date was never something positive in the first place, rather it was the day I was so cruelly forced into existence and more than anything I wish I never existed at all, existing truly is just meaningless and undesirable suffering.
 
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Dark Window

Dark Window

Forest Wanderer
Mar 12, 2024
547
Happy Birthday. Sorry about your loneliness.

We all think you're gorgeous love

lol.
 
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4am

there’s nothing for you (it/its)
Dec 14, 2023
3,329
i try to ignore my bdays but my family is selfish and always makes such a big deal out of them even when i ask them not to
 
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Agon321

I use google translate
Aug 21, 2023
1,654
Nothing.
Day like any other.
I don't focus on that at all.
 
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NikWild

Member
Apr 29, 2024
74
it was my birthday about a week ago and i just felt empty really. no one remembered, no big deal i expected that. i don't have many people in my life anyway. birthdays for me make me reflect on how shit my life has been. i feel this barrier around me and it makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone. i just wish i was normal.
Drink vodka
 
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deletedaccount30982

Illuminated
Mar 10, 2020
3,430
I try to brush them aside as much as possible. This past year I was lucky and got away with a few birthday wishes, one card, and a small gift from my sister. I managed to avoid any birthday dinners or cakes or big gifts. Birthdays are just a horrible reminder to me that I've made it another year when I should have been gone a long time ago.
 

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