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Letting Go

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Oct 30, 2018
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The part that sucks is you have to pay property taxes on your house even if you paid it off. At least in the US.

I wish I could like this comment 5,000 times -- one for each dollar my father currently pays in annual property/school taxes on a modest $100,000 house in this suburban HELLHOLE that completely ruined my life! When he passes away, I'm not giving this town ONE RED CENT in taxes! My mother (who hasn't worked in over three decades) or my brother (who's 32 and has only worked three days in his entire life) will have to pay this stupid town or have the house seized. That's the most likely scenario that will drive me to finally CTB.

As for my employment situation, I no longer have the motivation or drive to work full-time like I did when I had a greater sense of hope, so I just work temporary or part-time assignments in order to fund my travels -- so I can afford to get the fuck out of this hellish environment a few times a year since no out-of-town employer wants to throw me a liferaft.
 
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Snee

Student
Aug 3, 2018
135
I had that job for many years!
yes it make me so sad.dad retired 5 years ago.then mom will left her job end of this year.i try to make websites etc but non of them didnt work so i give up.
 
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longingforrelease

Specialist
Oct 27, 2018
381
yes it make me so sad.dad retired 5 years ago.then mom will left her job end of this year.i try to make websites etc but non of them didnt work so i give up.
that's a very difficult place to find yourself. I'm rooting for you
 
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Tokyojoe

Member
Sep 20, 2018
67
I worked as a hedge fund manager until I was fired because of my illness. Now I am living on my savings and ready to CTB.
 
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OkTotti

Wizard
Nov 6, 2018
616
I worked as a hedge fund manager until I was fired because of my illness. Now I am living on my savings and ready to CTB.
Is this legal to do? Even in Japan?
 
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Tokyojoe

Member
Sep 20, 2018
67
Is this legal to do? Even in Japan?

Yes, it's legal. They didn't state expressly that I was fired of my illness but me not meeting my KPIs
 
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daikon

trash golem
Dec 26, 2018
142
I'm currently working at my dream job, more or less. I'm a part time library assistant. Ideally I'd be full time, for money and to occupy myself more, but this is fine. Before this I worked full time at a temp job, and before that full time at a restaurant. I've found being overworked helps me get through it — I fantasize about killing myself throughout the day and drink in the evening. I've been managing to get by for about eight months like that.
 
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Johnnythefox

Johnnythefox

Que sera sera
Nov 11, 2018
3,129
Made redundant at the end of last July, been living off savings.
  1. Cook/chef - 26 years
  2. Barman - couple of months
  3. Factory work - couple of months
  4. Postman - temporary
  5. Auxiliary nurse - 4 years
  6. Rockstar - 7 years
Maybe had one or two more dead end jobs that I can't remember at the moment.
 
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Darrenloses

Darrenloses

Student
Nov 27, 2018
105
I work a shitty retail job.. I have a job interview on Friday for a call centre that pays well though so there's that
 
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journeytotheend

Member
Jan 1, 2019
71
I´m a flight dispatcher.
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
1,504
I'm on disability benefits. Used to be a teacher.
 
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Floraknife

Floraknife

Tired
Dec 29, 2018
158
I want to work so badly but I've been unemployed for about 2 years so most of my clothes are old/worn and I don't have the social skills from being isolated to go back into food service. I'm terrified of people these days, it's a living nightmare. I moved to Iceland on my own at 16 and over the years worked as a waitress at an Icelandic cafe, Pakistani restaurant, then assistant manager at a kebab shop. Worked in housekeeping for a year which I'd love to do again but there are no hotels or hostels nearby where I live now with my fiance.
He's in jail, and I hate relying on him fully, he deserves better. So I've got pretty much 0 options left besides leaving life behind and getting swallowed up by the streets. Too young to be accepted for disability even though by "mental illness" alone I qualify several times over. So yeah basically just wish I'd kept some of my savings to properly off myself with, now I don't even have the option of anything besides starvation/dehydration but I'm a shitty person so it's a fair way to go I think

Was supposed to try 1,4b but my last client (been freelance cleaning houses through CL a few times a month and it's kept me afloat but now I don't even have the $5 to renew my ad) scammed me so now I not only can't get the alcohol to make it more reliable but also owe someone with no way to remedy it. Basically, fuck everything

Anyway you're not alone OP
 
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Sinbad

Self-Annihilation is loading...95%
Nov 27, 2018
542
Terminal duty manager... working night shifts usually.. Less headache
 
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Misanthrope

Mage
Oct 23, 2018
557
Pretty much subsist off social security due to disability. I will likely never work again. What I am now is a pointless shell surviving to survive. Simply because it is the default state of being alive and I have certain responsibilities I refuse to walk away from until I see them safe.
 
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TheCrow

TheCrow

Invisible Spirit
Sep 26, 2018
802
I want to work so badly but I've been unemployed for about 2 years so most of my clothes are old/worn and I don't have the social skills from being isolated to go back into food service. I'm terrified of people these days, it's a living nightmare. I moved to Iceland on my own at 16 and over the years worked as a waitress at an Icelandic cafe, Pakistani restaurant, then assistant manager at a kebab shop. Worked in housekeeping for a year which I'd love to do again but there are no hotels or hostels nearby where I live now with my fiance.
He's in jail, and I hate relying on him fully, he deserves better. So I've got pretty much 0 options left besides leaving life behind and getting swallowed up by the streets. Too young to be accepted for disability even though by "mental illness" alone I qualify several times over. So yeah basically just wish I'd kept some of my savings to properly off myself with, now I don't even have the option of anything besides starvation/dehydration but I'm a shitty person so it's a fair way to go I think

Was supposed to try 1,4b but my last client (been freelance cleaning houses through CL a few times a month and it's kept me afloat but now I don't even have the $5 to renew my ad) scammed me so now I not only can't get the alcohol to make it more reliable but also owe someone with no way to remedy it. Basically, fuck everything

Anyway you're not alone OP
You should be able to get a SNAP card (food stamps—looks like a credit card). You only have to be unemployed if I'm remembering that correctly. I get almost $200/month for groceries.

For SSI, apparently your best bet is to hire a lawyer. They take a percentage of your back pay as payment (SSI money that you should've gotten in between the time you applied and when you were approved).That seems to make for a better case. I tried to get approved maybe 2 years ago, and I had seen the psychiatrist that they set me up with for an evaluation. He diagnosed me with like 5 different things, but I didn't get approved.

I've been told the system is: apply and get denied 2 times, then go to trial get get approved. When I applied this year, I got a lawyer, and I was approved the first time. I also have a physical disability now, so that might have played a large role in it.
 
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Floraknife

Tired
Dec 29, 2018
158
You should be able to get a SNAP card (food stamps—looks like a credit card). You only have to be unemployed if I'm remembering that correctly. I get almost $200/month for groceries.

For SSI, apparently your best bet is to hire a lawyer. They take a percentage of your back pay as payment (SSI money that you should've gotten in between the time you applied and when you were approved).That seems to make for a better case. I tried to get approved maybe 2 years ago, and I had seen the psychiatrist that they set me up with for an evaluation. He diagnosed me with like 5 different things, but I didn't get approved.

I've been told the system is: apply and get denied 2 times, then go to trial get get approved. When I applied this year, I got a lawyer, and I was approved the first time. I also have a physical disability now, so that might have played a large role in it.

This is really helpful, thank you

I applied for food stamps too, and was initially approved, but because I didn't make the meeting at the unemployment office (no bus money) and missed the phone meeting with my representative (she called like 3 hours late) ended up being denied. Guess I could try again but my phone goes out of service in 2 days so... Yeah, idk, it's worth a shot. Wouldn't really fix any of my internal problems but might be a start

So for the SSI, sorry if I sound like an idiot but don't you have to pay up front at first, or would you only have to pay them with a percentage of your SSI income if you get approved? My main problem is that I'm 21 and typically disability isn't granted for anyone under 30.
 
Floraknife

Floraknife

Tired
Dec 29, 2018
158
Thanks for responding btw!
 
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TheCrow

Invisible Spirit
Sep 26, 2018
802
This is really helpful, thank you

I applied for food stamps too, and was initially approved, but because I didn't make the meeting at the unemployment office (no bus money) and missed the phone meeting with my representative (she called like 3 hours late) ended up being denied. Guess I could try again but my phone goes out of service in 2 days so... Yeah, idk, it's worth a shot. Wouldn't really fix any of my internal problems but might be a start

So for the SSI, sorry if I sound like an idiot but don't you have to pay up front at first, or would you only have to pay them with a percentage of your SSI income if you get approved? My main problem is that I'm 21 and typically disability isn't granted for anyone under 30.
Yeah, if you miss any meetings or phone calls, you're out. The system is set up that way bc they want to be able to deny people.

No, you're not an idiot! This process is confusing af! No, I didn't have to pay my lawyer anything up front. He'll just get a percentage of my back pay (money I would've gotten between the time I applied and when I was approved). This seems to be the case for lawyers working on these types of cases, as I consulted with 2 other lawyers that did it the same way. I mean, I'm sure there's some swanky lawyers that make you pay upfront, but as far as I can tell that isn't the norm.
 
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daikon

daikon

trash golem
Dec 26, 2018
142
I work a shitty retail job.. I have a job interview on Friday for a call centre that pays well though so there's that

Best of luck with the interview!
 
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Johnnythefox

Johnnythefox

Que sera sera
Nov 11, 2018
3,129
The system is set up that way bc they want to be able to deny people.
It's the same over here, it's not set up to support! It's set up to oppress.
 
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Floraknife

Floraknife

Tired
Dec 29, 2018
158
Yeah, if you miss any meetings or phone calls, you're out. The system is set up that way bc they want to be able to deny people.

No, you're not an idiot! This process is confusing af! No, I didn't have to pay my lawyer anything up front. He'll just get a percentage of my back pay (money I would've gotten between the time I applied and when I was approved). This seems to be the case for lawyers working on these types of cases, as I consulted with 2 other lawyers that did it the same way. I mean, I'm sure there's some swanky lawyers that make you pay upfront, but as far as I can tell that isn't the norm.

That is absolutely fucked up. What are the chances that someone who seriously fuckin' NEEDS support to feed themselves has a working phone and ability to transport themselves anyway? I had to ask my abusive father to pay my phone bill last month and that 100% won't be happening again. Guess I can walk to/from the office, it's a few hours but not like I have anything better to do with my time.

And thanks for sharing! Doubt they'll consider a 21 year old for disability but who knows, there's a good chance I might be insane enough lol
 
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Deivis

Deivis

Seul contre tous
Jul 23, 2018
235
I´m a flight dispatcher.

Crikey! Having a flight dispatcher or a pilot on SS makes me thinking of that GermanWings Flight 9525 guy who had deliberately crashed his plane....
 
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Dor

SS village idiot
Nov 22, 2018
309
Currently just studying, if I fail for the coming future my ass can say good bye to living :ahhha:
 
sif

sif

You deserve love
Dec 28, 2018
373
My dad sends me money from across the world, he gets danger money and I don't deserve a penny of it
 
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Dead_Inside

Dead_Inside

Wizard
Jul 2, 2018
622
It's incredibly interesting to me to see all the ways people are surviving.
Wish there were not so many here struggling financially..... life is hard enough when you just want to die.
 
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Floraknife

Floraknife

Tired
Dec 29, 2018
158
I'm thinking about all of this again, and what a cruel irony it is that some of us have to put ridiculous amounts of effort into living just to be able to ctb properly.
 
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