- Jan 24, 2023
So last night during a typical suicidal episode, my friend talked to me and basically professed their eternal platonic love for me and told me if I die they die too. This caught me by surprise. We swore we would live our lives happily together as an iconic duo. This is all I ever wanted. I've never felt a love like this. As happy as I am, I'm still suicidal and now I suddenly cut off my coping mechanism of telling myself "it's ok I'll be dead soon" whenever I start to feel like shit. So my question is what do I do now? Actually live life? This is terrifying. I've been living every day like it's my last for so long. I don't even know where to begin.