Yes, as others have said, it's the breaking point. We all have one. Some of us are just more fragile, if you will, than others. There's only so much shit a person can take.
I think ^this is one of my favorite quotes on this platform.
Our existence surely is important and meaningful for things to go on; for another day to happen, regardless if a good or a bad one…
But if I am not there/here, that's okay too. Ssomeone else can or will take my place.
Sure, it's not going to be the same when it's a different person; I have qualities as well as deficits others don't have or don't have, it's just going to be different.
I just found peace in knowing and feeling that it is okay if I don't exist, the world will go on with & without me.
Back in 2018 I found a nice quote at
https://metanoia.org/ that goes;
> Suicide is not chosen; it happens
> when pain exceeds
> resources for coping with pain
and I felt that.
What keeps me from actively ending my life right now is, one not having the right tools to be confident in succeeding to ctb; but also, my coping resources and support through some people currently being somewhat above the level of desperation and pain there is…. I don't know if that makes sense, OP. Maybe it does