What caused your depression?

[ameliacecelia]

I've had depression most of my life (I believe mostly from the MTHFR gene) but I usually had hopes for the future. I started getting sick a couple years ago with a neurological illness and that has made me suicidal due to such a decrease in quality of life. And loss of hope as well.

 

[dietpill]

I've had depression most of my life (I believe mostly from the MTHFR gene) but I usually had hopes for the future. I started getting sick a couple years ago with a neurological illness and that has made me suicidal due to such a decrease in quality of life. And loss of hope as well.

I have the same neurometabolic issue (MTHFR). Are you taking 5-MTHF?

 

[badatparties]

Humanity.

 

[Natanael]

Death, a lot of death around me, and taking on many responsibilities at a very young age, accompanied by other unfortunate events

 

[Nightingale93]

Being denied all the opportunities in life, not being able to become my own person and have my own life.
Watching others have beautiful romantic relationships while I'm stuck dying alone.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

being bullied for being autistic/struggling with social things always since i was little/never being good at making friends, being bullied for being nonbinary/trans/never fitting gender norms even before i had those labels, parents who divorced when i was little and never having any sort of consistency at home, and horrible anxiety since i was so little was the start of it. many traumas, near death experince in times when i wasn't suicidal, struggling to hold a job, always being lonely and absolutly awful experinces with mental hospitals all made it worse even.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

What caused your depression? Im fascinated in what makes the brain and people like this. It is interesting to me to see how different brains respond to different situations.

Mine was caused by career decisions followed immediately by relationship conflict. Too much stress on the brain all at once pushed me into a state of insomnia and depression. Hasnt stopped since

Financial despair from shitty spending habits and an ex-wife who refused to work. I'm now saddled with alimony to sustain her life. Knowing that I'm going to die alone and broke.


Also, I don't think I'm good at relationships in general from childhood trauma. .
Nothing crazy just not having loving parents or childhood

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

The awareness that life is merely a mechanism. The understanding that what we call feelings are nothing more than repetitions of the environment, just like everything else we do. We forge personalities within the void because we have the illusion of being "unique." Everything in the human race is perfectly explainable with basic reasoning, observation, history. They say we are "complex." Bullshit. My greatest pain is knowing that we are here by chance, that what keeps us here is another stupid mechanism that exists in any insect. I could write a lot about all this, but it's so obvious that whoever hasn't realized it yet is just trapped inside what the mind creates to escape this reality. Obviously, I had a chance to perceive some things very early on, witnessing the death of my parents. There I perceived one of the first signs that this shit was what it is. But it was only around my 20s that everything was already very well concluded. From then until now (at 60 years old) I just drag myself along waiting, for now, for the mechanism to do the same as it will do to anyone else. I can stop this, but so far I haven't decided on a method. Actually, I'm expecting a sudden heart attack. I need to emphasize that I don't feel sick; I feel logical and rational about what life is. And I also don't see "life" as something that deserves to be hated. It is what it is : A shithole where, unfortunately, we were spat on.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I'm just a badly turned out person. Inwardly grandiose, outwardly cowardly. Countless failures, humiliations, and blown opportunities behind me. I wake up every morning to some unbearable memory.