Discussion What are your regrets?

[birdie8]

What are some things you regret? The things you replay in your head, the conversations you wish had gone differently, the moments where you wish you had shown up better, the choices you still wonder about.

I have a bad habit of avoiding things and self isolating until I'm forced to confront my reality. In my anger ignoring the trauma in my life, I've isolated myself, pulled away from people, and let friendships fade even with people I genuinely have so much love for. Bipolar disorder has made me disappear from people I care about in ways I never intended, and it's hard knowing there are people who mattered so much to me that I wasn't always able to show up for.

What's something you regret but rarely talk about? Is there someone you wish you had reached out to? Is there something you wish you handled differently? Is there a version of yourself you wish you could go back and understand better?

I think it's interesting hearing what people carry with them.

 

[Lazuli]

I regret being born.

 

[100memoryleaks]

too many things. WAY too many things. but mainly... wasting my chance to get a correct mental health diagnosis by being stubborn. i gave up too easily.

 

[Eudaimonic]

The main one that continues to haunt me, but which I repress most of the time, is not starting HRT earlier and instead letting my body be destroyed by puberty.

I don't experience constant horror like I used to, so things have improved. It's still painful however.

 

[SuprizeInterrobang]

The main one that continues to haunt me, but which I repress most of the time, is not starting HRT earlier and instead letting my body be destroyed by puberty.

I don't experience constant horror like I used to, so things have improved. It's still painful however.

I feel this too much. My parents made me ignore my dysphoria growing up and now it feels like something I can never overcome because I started hormones too late as well. Dysphoria really sucks.

 

[FuneralCry]

What I regret is suffering in this terrible, torturous existence in the first place, this existence is a mistake that never should had been imposed and I wish I never suffered more than anything, it's just so horrible how humans cause all this pain and suffering there was never a need for by forcing life into this dreadful, terrible world where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured and what is so extremely cruel is how humans do all they can to force others to suffer in this existence that to me will always be the most terrible abomination.

All I want is to erase this terrible, futile existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want peace from this existence that only ever tortures existing beings all for the sake of it, in this existence of torturous suffering non-existence is all I see as positive.

 

[itsgone2]

Almost everything and it's not an exaggeration.
I just make terrible decisions. Many times I know what to do then I just do the opposite. It's like I'm possessed.
It's eating me up. I wish i could go back.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Letting my bpd ruin every nice thing I get to have. Even though it was always something completely out of my control. I feel like I should have tried harder. But in actuality I was trying as hard as I could.

 

[Spite]

- Throwing love away
- Throwing online friends away/ghosting people who liked me
- Throwing away an entire online community I used to be a part of, where people thought highly of me and respected me
- Wasting my time sitting in my room talking to nobody when I was younger
- Deleting my original YouTube channel many years ago
- Never putting myself out there and really trying my best
- All the time I've wasted ruminating over the past and being miserable

 

[Drogon]

Drugs

 

[suncide10]

Not standing up for myself in school when I used to get bullied, but I don't think I'd do better in life if I did. But most important is being born in my family, it's so fucked up but on the surface everything seems okay, no wonder why I am so depressed.

 

[fluorescentpearl]

I regret taking for granted all those amazing moments I spent wif my beloved, in the moment I was so happy and felt like it would last forever so why should I worry? And now that it's lost I realize how much I wish I could've done, how much I wish I could've said, there's so many things I regret not doing or telling him, so many things I planned that I waited too long for

 

[Eternal Slave]

tendo jogado fora a oportunidade de me libertar do meu vício em pornografia

 

[starboy2k]

being a human.
wish I was a fucking elephant or something.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I regret not having had cosmetic surgery when I was young - I couldnt afford it - but to all those with body dysmorphia and some money, I say don't wait!.

I really regret having studied environmental science rather than sports science - biggest mistake. Not to say it would not have been any less competitive and I still would of lacked confidence to succeed due to family abuse and childhood issues - but there would have been more opportunities for work.

I wish I had got pregnant to a man who had could provide and pay maintenance - If only I hadn't been stupid enough to look for love and someone who wanted to get married...that was foolish and only for attractive women - I had too high morals for such an ugly person.

I regret having been born into my family as the scapegoat with a narc father and golden child narc sister - if that wasn't the dumbest choice ever !

 

[letsnotmakeittoo22]

Not being a better wife.

Not being a better daughter.

Not being Better I guess.

 

[Disabledfromjump7]

I regret I jumped in psychosis. I wish it had either never happened or had been from an airplane.

 

[MeSauce]

I regret not studying enough

 

[limenlux]

I regret not cultivating the proper skills and resources with which to travel and potentially re-locate outside the United States. This is not a political statement, per se.

 

[here_for_now]

Not killing myself sooner

 

[AgathaChristieLover]

Mainly being such a doormat

 

[thelostautistic]

I have lots of regrets. There have been times where I've been a bad friend to many people and I still ruminate on those situations a lot. But I've learnt from those moments and have tried to be better. My biggest regret though is worrying so much about things don't matter and holding in my emotions for so many years. I now don't feel able to let my feelings out and it's awful. It's like a block I have. I wish I could just cry and let everything out. Not just a few tears I mean everything.

 

[lastappleonearth]

A lot of things actually, but mainly that I fucked up all my friendships and relationships. I just have this terrible habit of self sabotage and I only realise it, when it's already too late. I lost a girl, I really loved and with whom I could've built a future because of that. I wish I had sooner realised what I was doing and stopped, but I didn't

I have lots of regrets. There have been times where I've been a bad friend to many people and I still ruminate on those situations a lot. But I've learnt from those moments and have tried to be better. My biggest regret though is worrying so much about things don't matter and holding in my emotions for so many years. I now don't feel able to let my feelings out and it's awful. It's like a block I have. I wish I could just cry and let everything out. Not just a few tears I mean everything.

I feel this, I also ruminate about certain things forever and it's torture. Ive also been a bad friend and bad partner ig. I've realised my patterns of self sabotage and got better, but now there's just no one left to be better for

 

[goodbad&ugly777]

Trusting her.

 

[zxcvbn3857]

everything

 

[tiramisu]

everything

same

 

[leowantstobedead]

Being with my ex, also all tge times i've messed up attempting to commit

 

[plskilme]

Not dying with the multiple near-death experiences throughout my life...

 

[iguazo falls]

to be hoenest not much. it is what it is. theres a lot of things i know i would be better off for doing or not doing but theres also reasons i havent done/have done the action. or its just not in my control.

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

Honestly, nothing. It's been out of my control since I was born. I genuinely wish I could have a good life, but seeing the world for what it really is... No. Just no.