what are your excuses?

[Kaltherz]

I often feel like I'm telling myself so many lies to stay here. Sometimes these lies are about things that need to be finished. Other times they're about people who shouldn't be hurt by my absence. Other times it's the somewhat childish fear of being punished for an act that goes against the ideals of my culture. What does your mind invent?

 

[thelostautistic]

I really resonate with what you're saying. I also feel like my mind invents things to delay my plan. It's really weird. My current one is "You can't ctb until you've got rid of most of your stuff" so I'm spending all my time on Vinted I guess the lies work if they're keeping us here a bit longer

 

[joey2424]

Hurting my family is a big one.

Once I started to be really serious though, I got really concerned about afterlife. And whether ctb genuinely impacts what happens to us afterward.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing, it just doesn't, I only suffer in this dreadful, painful and torturous existence as I exist in this horrific anti-suicide torture world where I'm so cruelly denied the option to never suffer again, to me anti-suicide is just so evil, all that anti-suicide does is just cause so much more harm and torture in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

There's just so much evil in how humans have made dying painlessly into a crime with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, this existence truly is a mistake to me, all I want is to erase this terrible, dreadful existence that just harms existing beings, I just want it to be like I never suffered at all.

 

[bugbugbug]

For now it's waiting for my supplies to arrive but there's also the potential for change in the time it takes. I'm also unsure where I'll do this and not be found, I'm in a very populated place. I could travel though.