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pechaberry

pechaberry

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Just curious what you guys are planning. Food is my favorite part of being alive. If I can miss things after ctb it will be food.
I think my last meal is gonna be a really nicely cooked and crusted steak and some kind of potatos that are fancy and I don't usually have the energy to make. Maybe I'll scallop those bitches.
 
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4colliez

4colliez

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Nov 17, 2025
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same either treat myself to a big fat steak and potatoes or some katsu curry
 
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pechaberry

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same either treat myself to a big fat steak and potatoes or some katsu curry
Katsu curry would slap. I was thinking since it's my last meal. If I have the money or energy maybe I can make a couple of different dishes that I love. I only feel bad about the food waste. I wish I had someone who wouldn't be horrified who could come take the leftovers home to eat while they're still good haha.
 
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Kanau_Nano

Kanau_Nano

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Apr 12, 2026
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Holy heck scalloped potatoes. I'm hungry now why would you say thiss.

I like every food in existence so I can't pick. Maybe just go to a nice buffet and eat everything. I might not have the energy to ctb anymore after lol
 
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pechaberry

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Holy heck scalloped potatoes. I'm hungry now why would you say thiss.

I like every food in existence so I can't pick. Maybe just go to a nice buffet and eat everything. I might not have the energy to ctb anymore after lol
lol! If we lived by eachother we could be ctb partners and have a feast before. Unfortunately that's not how it works since it's hard to time wanting to ctb 😭😭 What are your favorites?? I'm literally about to be a fat fuck tonight just thinking about this. Food is seriously my only joy in life I think haha.
 
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pechaberry

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Oooooh that's a classic. What kind of pizza?? If I ever got wealth in this life I would want to try and send random acts of pizza to people. There are so many people on this forum just because they can't even afford to live, me included to an extent. Maybe I should try one last ditch effort to talk a rich old man into marrying me. Then I could dump all his money into people who need it. I would be kind to him until I ctb ofc. Might be worth a try if I'm gonna Kermit any way.
 
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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

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Apr 3, 2026
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sushi for sure. love that shit to much
 
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You could try the elusive puffer fish since it's your last meal anyway!
 
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ginadu

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Holy heck scalloped potatoes. I'm hungry now why would you say thiss.

I like every food in existence so I can't pick. Maybe just go to a nice buffet and eat everything. I might not have the energy to ctb anymore after lol
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LastDayOnEarth

LastDayOnEarth

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May 20, 2025
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Nothing special, maybe a sandwich or pasta with a coffee cup
 
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Hopel3ss

Hopel3ss

The end is near
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Oooooh that's a classic. What kind of pizza?? If I ever got wealth in this life I would want to try and send random acts of pizza to people. There are so many people on this forum just because they can't even afford to live, me included to an extent. Maybe I should try one last ditch effort to talk a rich old man into marrying me. Then I could dump all his money into people who need it. I would be kind to him until I ctb ofc. Might be worth a try if I'm gonna Kermit any way.
Most likely a classic Margherita pizza or a Four Seasons pizza.
Earlier this year, there was a story in the Italian news about a girl who bought two pizzas and a Coke before she CTB in the woods at night. I took inspiration from her.
 
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pechaberry

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Nothing special, maybe a sandwich or pasta with a coffee cup
Any specific types? Coffee sounds nice. Just smelling it would lend a lot of comfort and warmth to the experience I feel like.
Most likely a classic Margherita pizza or a Four Seasons pizza.
Earlier this year, there was a story in the Italian news about a girl who bought two pizzas and a Coke before she CTB in the woods at night. I took inspiration from her.
Good choices! Are you going to get a coke too? The woods seems like a really peaceful place to go. I hope she found peace.
 
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Kanau_Nano

Kanau_Nano

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lol! If we lived by eachother we could be ctb partners and have a feast before. Unfortunately that's not how it works since it's hard to time wanting to ctb 😭😭 What are your favorites?? I'm literally about to be a fat fuck tonight just thinking about this. Food is seriously my only joy in life I think haha.
lol I'd love to have a feast with you we could help carry each other out of the buffet. I really hope you feel better and decide not to ctb you seem super nice!

My favorites is everything fr lol. In particular buffalo chicken and blue cheese sounds amazing rn. Or maybe Sea Urchin Sushi or a large amount of Kimchi or... I could go on a while
 
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LastDayOnEarth

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Any specific types? Coffee sounds nice. Just smelling it would lend a lot of comfort and warmth to the experience I feel like.

Good choices! Are you going to get a coke too? The woods seems like a really peaceful place to go. I hope she found peace.
Maybe black coffee with nothing on it, I always liked it that way
 
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if_i_make_it

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Apr 30, 2026
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honestly hadn't thought about it but it'll probably involve ice cream :)
 
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chuckapalahniuk27

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Apr 9, 2026
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panang curry and rice with thai iced tea. i eat it on my birthday every year so it'd be nice as my last meal
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

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Dec 10, 2025
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Creamy bacon pasta, I really love pasta😆even though I haven't tried that many different kinds
 
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2muchpain2

2muchpain2

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Most likely a classic Margherita pizza or a Four Seasons pizza.
Earlier this year, there was a story in the Italian news about a girl who bought two pizzas and a Coke before she CTB in the woods at night. I took inspiration from her.
howd she do it? It prob didn't say I guess.
Idk why but this thread made me cry for all of us. Because we still love things, but it's just not enough to keep us here and also, it really humanizes everyone. I also wonder what music/playlist I will pick. Probably Radiohead maybe.
 
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Hopel3ss

Hopel3ss

The end is near
Mar 31, 2025
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howd she do it? It prob didn't say I guess.
Idk why but this thread made me cry for all of us. Because we still love things, but it's just not enough to keep us here and also, it really humanizes everyone. I also wonder what music/playlist I will pick. Probably Radiohead maybe.
One night, under the pretext of visiting her friend, she took her bike from her parents' house, went to buy two pizzas, then rode to the forest, ate them, and hanged herself.

There was a lot of unnecessary media coverage here in Italy because people thought it was a murder. It seemed strange to them that she had bought two pizzas and locked her bike before taking her own life. Or probabily just a cope from ignorant people because "she was too pretty and young to CTB" i found nothing strange from her behavour
 
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One night, under the pretext of visiting her friend, she took her bike from her parents' house, went to buy two pizzas, then rode to the forest, ate them, and hanged herself.

There was a lot of unnecessary media coverage here in Italy because people thought it was a murder. It seemed strange to them that she had bought two pizzas and locked her bike before taking her own life. Or probabily just a cope from ignorant people because "she was too pretty and young to CTB" i found nothing strange from her behavour
I feel like I would do the same. I mean, some of the automatic, and familiar things I do everyday.
 
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Creamy bacon pasta, I really love pasta😆even though I haven't tried that many different kinds
Mmmmmm like carbonara??
lol I'd love to have a feast with you we could help carry each other out of the buffet. I really hope you feel better and decide not to ctb you seem super nice!

My favorites is everything fr lol. In particular buffalo chicken and blue cheese sounds amazing rn. Or maybe Sea Urchin Sushi or a large amount of Kimchi or... I could go on a while
Mmmmmmm yes kimchi!! Kimchi anything!! I feel the same about you! I still have a long time to go before I ctb. I'm waiting for a sick family member to pass first. Then I'll start getting some opioids and planning more seriously. I would slam an entire table of buffalo wings with you 😤
One night, under the pretext of visiting her friend, she took her bike from her parents' house, went to buy two pizzas, then rode to the forest, ate them, and hanged herself.

There was a lot of unnecessary media coverage here in Italy because people thought it was a murder. It seemed strange to them that she had bought two pizzas and locked her bike before taking her own life. Or probabily just a cope from ignorant people because "she was too pretty and young to CTB" i found nothing strange from her behavour
Yeah I mean if she sat and ate her food it would be an indicator that she chose that for sure. Also I don't know why a stranger would grab her and hang her. There would have to be defensive wounds and the like. Poor soul. At least she got to go on her own terms.
panang curry and rice with thai iced tea. i eat it on my birthday every year so it'd be nice as my last meal
Wow that's actually really meaningful. That made me tear up a bit. Like one last warm hug of I love you to yourself :c
honestly hadn't thought about it but it'll probably involve ice cream :)
Ice cream is a must. Ice cream macarons or maybe little ice cream cakes! Wait no, a blizzard from DQ.
 
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pechaberry

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Apr 29, 2026
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Yeah something like that! Maybe heavy cream and cheese :)
Pasta is a good choice because it's like the ultimate comfort food. I hope you find something worth living for still though. If you do decide to ctb I hope it's the creamiest yummiest best pasta of your life!!
 
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SomeoneHelpMe

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Jun 22, 2025
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I havent even thought about that. I am Just gonna starve myself that day. I decided its time for me to go, and I will probably eat my moms cooking as my Last meal before I CTB.
 
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interna

Gone Tomorrow, Here Today
Dec 1, 2025
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not a meal but beer cuz i love beer. and ice cream. or at least i think so! maybe ill starve just to avoid being a messy corpse in terms of bodily waste...
 
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Matchaaa

Matchaaa

Please excuse any tone misunderstandings,thank you
Dec 10, 2025
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Pasta is a good choice because it's like the ultimate comfort food. I hope you find something worth living for still though. If you do decide to ctb I hope it's the creamiest yummiest best pasta of your life!!
Thanks! whatever you decide to do, I hope you find a lot of joy and peace in life.❤️
 
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Won't be much planning involved, but if that does happen, i would probably cook about 16 slices of bacon, super crisp, burned, with dry toast and orange juice--and maybe some Haagen Daas strawberry ice cream
 
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