Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Bad Mojo]

I'm trying to quit smoking & drinking but am now feeling the craving for booze because I'm lonely and have no friends (except one who is gradually and amicably growing distant) and can only talk to people when I'm drunk. Every friendship I've had (and lost) since high school has been established while I was intoxicated so.... there's a 50% chance I'll do something retarded and move on after a day or two of intense shame or 50% chance something good happens. If I do anything to begin with anyway. Either way I'm feeding back into an active addiction .

 

[yume_]

What hurts more is knowing that all of this is my and only my fault. Somehow I managed to screw up everything I had and I continue to do so. I know that if put in the work I would be able to live a good life, but honestly a part of me already gave up. It's been years of the same thing. Just me wasting time, procrastinating and screwing up everything. I wonder how long my facade lasts.

 

[CTB Dream]

this all lif awfl pain sfffr endle

 

[ImpairedLowlife]

Uncomfortable

 

[NiicheKey]

this is such an insignificant post but does anyone else notice how fucking shitty google search is now? i try to search things and it shows a few results that are relevant and then the rest just have nothing to do with what i even searched? even using quotes around the search doesnt help. it used to but now it will just come up with no results even though thats literally not possible? how can there be absolutely nothing to show for a search online? everything is just increasingly bad now. i think its so we just use ai. ugh.

Yeah it's offtopic to the post, but same here. DuckDuckGo shows AI generated sites, Bing sometimes too, Google's privacy and using personal data is hell, Brave and other privacy focused browsers don't show the images that fit the search.

These last days I've been only using Wikipedia and local translate sites. Internet is falling apart too ig

 

[mars2027]

I wish I were more cold-hearted and could get ahead in life by taking advantage of others without feeling any remorse. I despise having the nature of a sheep rather than a wolf.

 

[yotaka]

this is such an insignificant post but does anyone else notice how fucking shitty google search is now? i try to search things and it shows a few results that are relevant and then the rest just have nothing to do with what i even searched? even using quotes around the search doesnt help. it used to but now it will just come up with no results even though thats literally not possible? how can there be absolutely nothing to show for a search online? everything is just increasingly bad now. i think its so we just use ai. ugh.

 

[violetforever]

oh my god yeah everything just sucks now…

 

[hurts2b]

A little like I have a headache.

Can't stop all the mental noise. Having visual snow as well. There is. Frustration.

My thoughts are not forming in complete sentences. Rather. Single words. Or word salad.

Craving a distraction. And ramen noodles.

 

[ButterToast]

I feel empty. Like if you slice me open, you'll find nothing there. Just black emptiness. I go through life mechanically, and it's like every emotion I feel is fake. Like they're really just at the surface. Beneath, there's nothing. It's weird. I know what to feel but I don't feel it.

I'm hurting and because of that, I end up hurting others. I don't want to cause pain anymore. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I just want it all to end.

Emptiness, has been feeling this way for awhile. Nothing feels real, nothing makes me feel alive.

 

[peacebenow]

agony

 

[violetforever]

it probably means nothing cause my house just has a bunch of spiders in it anyway but the past two nights ive had a spider crawl on me while im in bed they were both the same exact looking type of spider. the first night the spider crawled on my hand and i turned my light on and found it and killed it (i wouldnt have if it wasnt 1 am) and then the second night i felt a sharp sting on my stomach and lifted my shirt to see a spider leg so i got bit. when i got up to turn the light on the rest of the spiders body was dead underneath me. idk. im usually afraid of spiders but i didnt really feel freaked out i just went to bed both times afterwards.

 

[heartinparadise]

I can't ever relax or be at ease, it's been 5 years i know It'll continue for the foreseeable future, it feels like I'm always being gripped. it wears me down gradually, the worst part is knowing that it'll go on for an undefined amount of time. I wish it would sand away at my health too along with my patience

 

[LRkin]

Considering that I am on a very strict diet... Hungry, tired and empty. Which isn't that bad. Don't have that much energy to feel bad.

 

[Redacted24]

Fragile

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

I love you, so please stop playing with my stomach. I know I'm overweight. I know that I'll probably never look like you. You're the swan to an ugly duckling, and I've always acknowledged that shame. I know you love me too, but sometimes your actions—despite their nonseverity—do hurt me.

 

[meiherasayuri]

I don't even care to say it, but I always hated you You were so unpleasant and pathetic. Your stupidity made me want to vomit. Because of you, I lost the person I cared about. Him Was asshole But that doesn't change the fact that you were one too. You were both idiots, they just covered for you because you were so perfect. I hate you And I always will, I never want to see your face again,I don't know what they saw in you, but I just see you as another troublemaker. I don't know how to feel, but I dislike you

 

[witchcraft]

Thinking once again that life isn't worth living if you aren't born rich.

 

[tonicer]

I'm tired. It's late so that's normal but i also feel sad because i am lonely. I also feel somehow comfortable in a weird way. I just watched a couple of episodes of an anime i really like. ("Smoking Behind the Supermarket with You" if anyone is interested in a chill and calm romance anime) I'm just going to go to sleep now, maybe in my dreams i find love?!

 

[ImpairedLowlife]

Incredibly anxious

 

[Lay.Struggles]

I feel like having the mental health problems is a death sentence. One that people misunderstand and will never truly get better.

 

[SmigSauer]

Sperged out because family was coming over and I felt such overwhelming anxiety that I couldn't really meet them. Also looked like a total fucking retard when talking with other people today because I use pot everyday to cope with how much I hate living, and it is causing massive brain fog to the point that I can't articulate my points at all anymore.

I am in one of those moods where there's intense rage bubbling just under the surface, but I don't know how to release it or express it because I almost always suppress my emotions to not be a nuisance.

 

[hurts2b]

Like a fucking idiot

 

[dhk96]

I wish I didn't have the voice version of RBF. Like it registers in my head that I sound like I'm being sarcastic or uninterested, but it's hard for me to adjust on the spot/before the words leave my mouth.

It's not as bad in real life, I think (people wouldn't notice in most cases--not that I've really spoken with anyone outside of the family these days), but it gets pretty bad when trying to play games that "require" voice chat for smooth communication and gameplay. The anxiety also probably plays a lot into it.

Cursed to use text chat whenever possible lol.

 

[dead dav]

Disconnected not entirely sure why I'm still here

 

[xKiraSlumberx]

Had a headache for a good portion of today and it has been coming back even after some sleep. So humid here. I want to eat but don't want to eat at the same time. I want to do things, like I really want to get started on doing things and I'm trying but currently I'm just feeling, I dunno, like maybe I wanna lay down some more.

 

[dhk96]

Kind of anxious about all the people lighting off (friggin' illegal) fireworks tonight (and tomorrow) because I'm super sensitive to loud noises. I remember running home panicking, hyperventilating, shaking, and in tears years ago while because I had decided to take an evening walk. It was a horrific experience.

Hopefully my headphones or earbuds can dampen most of the noise...

Happy 4th of July to all the Americans. But screw fireworks.

 

[lilyistootired]

Absolutely exhausted, wish I was thin and didn't overeat constantly. Wish someone would save me from my life and environment, and having to be a person who makes decisions

 

[pleaseletmeleave]

Defeated. Just done with this existence but the guilt of hurting my mom is what's forcing me to stay in this agony. She's been through so much in her life and is the most incredible mother ever that I can't bear to hurt a single hair on her head. But I really don't know how to keep going. Wish I could just shut the empathy part off and do what's best for me but I don't know how to

 

[Enyan]

I'm so frustrated. I want to be there for people, give them the kindness they deserve, better responses and more meaningful advice. But with my brain fog and memory issues I can't be there in the way I would have before everything happened. It hurts so much.