Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Sprite_Geist]

I am feeling lonely again; not because I have nobody in my life, but because I am only with people who I have no choice but to be around. If I knew that my semi-attempt at suicide years back would not be successful I would not have distanced myself from close friends; they were the only people who I had a genuine connection with, and they gave me the feeling that I am my own person, and not just an extension of my relatives.

I am trying to make an effort to be as independent as possible, but certain family members will not allow me to do anything myself. I feel like my life has been lived for me; I feel like a total loser. This is partly my own fault, because I should have tried harder to defeat my demons years ago, and then I could have had the ability to move away from family and live my own life! It is too late for this though.

 

[Lefty]

Feeling lethargic right now.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I think I just got broken up with. He wasn't mean about anything about it. I understand where he is coming from. He doesn't have much time left and I can't meet up with him and he wants to spend his time with someone he can actually be with irl. It still hurts though. He said we can't even be friends, though he still plans on messaging me tomorrow. I'm not mad at him. I understand where you is coming from. But it just hurts so much. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him, but there isn't anything I can do. I just want him to be happy and if he thinks that this is for the best then all I can do is accept that.

 

[r.m.216]

People are fucking assholes. And it makes them happy to be mean.

Fuck this world.

I think I just got broken up with. He wasn't mean about anything about it. I understand where he is coming from. He doesn't have much time left and I can't meet up with him and he wants to spend his time with someone he can actually be with irl. It still hurts though. He said we can't even be friends, though he still plans on messaging me tomorrow. I'm not mad at him. I understand where you is coming from. But it just hurts so much. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him, but there isn't anything I can do. I just want him to be happy and if he thinks that this is for the best then all I can do is accept that.

Wish I was this emotionally mature

 

[Bowerbird]

It is hopeless. I am literally a young man trapped in the body of a frail, sickly girl. I have felt like this for my whole life and have always shown signs of it, it was always super obvious to others that I was not normal. The signs were always there. I was just born like this. But it also feels so hopeless. If I was just born normal most of my behaviour and angst would be seen as normal for an average typical adolescent boy. But I'm not. I will always just be some miserable frail little girl who is considered too dumb and naive and confused to be able to make my own decisions about my own body/life.

Universe, God, whoever or whatever is out there, If I will never be a real man, at least let me be with that one girl I like, at least let me be gay.

 

[Dejected 55]

I feel like my soul has already gone, and I am the shell that remains and I am just operating on autopilot until I use up the remaining energy available to me. I hope my soul is free elsewhere in non-existence to no longer be in pain. I long for the end to come. There is no more hope, I am completely alone, not pretend alone, actually truly fully alone with no one at all. Every moment I hurt and ache for death to take me.