
Sprite_Geist
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- May 27, 2020
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I am feeling lonely again; not because I have nobody in my life, but because I am only with people who I have no choice but to be around. If I knew that my semi-attempt at suicide years back would not be successful I would not have distanced myself from close friends; they were the only people who I had a genuine connection with, and they gave me the feeling that I am my own person, and not just an extension of my relatives.
I am trying to make an effort to be as independent as possible, but certain family members will not allow me to do anything myself. I feel like my life has been lived for me; I feel like a total loser. This is partly my own fault, because I should have tried harder to defeat my demons years ago, and then I could have had the ability to move away from family and live my own life! It is too late for this though.
I am trying to make an effort to be as independent as possible, but certain family members will not allow me to do anything myself. I feel like my life has been lived for me; I feel like a total loser. This is partly my own fault, because I should have tried harder to defeat my demons years ago, and then I could have had the ability to move away from family and live my own life! It is too late for this though.