I just want to live in a world where things are nice and people are nice and all I have is this shitty dump. I just want to be happy for more than 5 seconds before going into a week long numbness. I just want to be held and never let go. I just want happy, Where is happy.
I just want too much. I just want a life worth living. I just want to truly give up so I don't have to worry about wanting things anymore.
It just feels like nothing matters anymore. The compliments, the happiness, no matter how genuine, it's just empty words. Everything is just empty, my life, my games, my mind, my past, my present, my future. No matter how much I stuff, it is never enough.
Never enough. Always wanting more.
More.
MORE.
MORE.
MORE!
MOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMOREMORE!!!