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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
1,933
While waiting for method or waiting for the date? What are y'all doing in the meantime?

Just curious to hear what others are doing for the rest of their days. I'm starting to settle on CTB & methods and now I'm wondering what ima do with myself in the interim.

So, if comfortable would like to hear how others are spending their time and such.

Thnx 🤗
 
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sadalways

sadalways

My birth was an error
Sep 5, 2024
292
Watching youtube mostly and browsing this forum like 24/7 :pfff: trying not to be bored as hell. Don't really have a date though. At least not yet.
 
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ramon

ramon

Student
Aug 10, 2024
164
Figuring out how my possessions should be handled (What stays the day I CTB? What goes to my loved ones? What goes to donations or to sales?

Figuring out how my digital footprint should be handled (Encrypting hard drives, distributing files my loved one should have after I CTB)

Doing paperwork that will have effect when I CTB successfully and even if I fail to CTB.

Visiting places that are significant to me for the last time.

Figuring out "plan B" in case I don't find to what I need for "plan A", which would be N2 for me.


[Thanks for asking]
 
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Afterglow

Afterglow

the best geoguessr player ever
Feb 22, 2025
376
I've got a little over a month so I'm just playing video games and hoping to find someone to CTB with.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,802
Just putting one foot in front of the other as best I can.
 
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CravingPeace

CravingPeace

It’s only a matter of time
Feb 19, 2025
344
Suffering, lol. Trying to find the positives in the little things, but it's been really hard lately.
 
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thatonedeadgirl

thatonedeadgirl

Member
Feb 23, 2025
20
Suffering too
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

what's a way to just be competent
Nov 22, 2024
1,512
trying to find someone to ctb with
browsing this website
reading on ethics of birth and death
understanding suicide prevention
coping
slowly writing a suicide note
tying up loose ends
 
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LastLoveSong

LastLoveSong

attention seeker
Oct 18, 2023
162
Regretting my decisions and wishing I never existed in the first place
 
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avalonisburning

Laugh again with me
May 12, 2024
153
Running out the clock. Seeing how far I can go before I'm forced to act. Enjoying what I can, while I can in the meantime.
 
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2minutes2ctb

Member
Feb 24, 2025
49
Just trying to live a normal life, in order to not have friends and family becoming suspicious. I haven't decided on the method yet, so after work I usually study the best way to ctb with the means that I have.

I'm surprised by the number of people trying to find someone to ctb with. Isn't that making things harder ?
 
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JobuLio111m

JobuLio111m

I feel guilty for being here.
Mar 24, 2025
32
Clearing out my possessions as I slowly clean more and more of the house at a time. Occasionally trying to handle the massive chore of removing as many of my unused accounts as possible. I've just pretended it's a minimalist, self help sort of clearing out and not for the sake of the next guy.
 
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Sbetto

Sbetto

√\____/√\___/√\__/√\_/__________Chill guy
Dec 6, 2024
205
I'm rewatching Breaking Bad for the 5th time and browsing on Sasu.
 
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stilhavinightmares

stilhavinightmares

Warlock
Oct 13, 2022
759
Wasting people's time and effort in lot of therapy and treatment.
 
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Halfhourdays

Halfhourdays

"Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt."
Mar 14, 2025
621
Staying out of trouble.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Doomscrolling
 
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bipolar22

bipolar22

Notorious shtposter
Aug 31, 2022
387
abusing pills and vaping my ass off. and having meltdowns. good thing gf is working 16 hours a day to afford this shit canada life so she doesnt have to witness all my craziness. And i can hang myself undisturbed since she wont be here till midnight from 6 in the morning
 
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TornReality

TornReality

Member
Mar 18, 2025
43
Watching a lot of youtube.
Movies.
Waking up to the same shit over and over again.
 
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NoMoreSanity

Member
Mar 17, 2025
90
Slowly losing my mind...... being mentally tormented by the horrific truths of life. Coping isn't working anymore. And school.
 
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blackIronPrison

blackIronPrison

Member
Mar 2, 2025
43
Getting belligerently drunk and playing ck3 until my chosen date comes up.

Thankfully I'm in a good position just based on how I've behaved over my life where my family/loved ones will go for months without hearing from me and not be suspicious, plus they live out state. Point being I can be a complete recluse without arousing suspicion which makes the wait a bit easier.
 
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Christian1986

Member
Jun 23, 2024
43
Tinnitus, Flashbacks/Nightmares from abusive narcisstic Famaly,serious backpain from a Bad injury later days ago, Doomscrooling , Go to the Store If i can to get drunk, and Most time bed rotting.
 
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Z-A

Z-A

Let me go
Mar 3, 2024
352
Gaming, music, porn, drugs, movies/series/anime. Just doing what I enjoy to distract myself from this shitty reality and the past while waiting for the day to come where it will come to an end.
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
442
A lot of mindless scrolling. I had planned to spend time with a handful of people, but I just don't have the energy to maintain polite conversation anymore
 
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fentgirl

fentgirl

The origin of the ‘Influencing Machine’
Nov 14, 2023
16
Watching movie and chatting with online strangers :halo:
 
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