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trulyautistic

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Feb 14, 2026
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what are the main reasons stopping you from doing it right now. I'm asking because I'm looking for reasons not to rope myself.
 
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glitterpvppy

glitterpvppy

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Feb 11, 2026
46
Hoping that things will get better.
Scared to hurt my mom.
Fear of the discomfort
fear of it not working
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
147
don't want to make my housemate scared or sad when he finds me
wanting to finish a project i am doing with someone else
wanting to do my special interest/passion more
wanting to be around long enough to listen to the new noah kahan album in a few months
wanting to be around for the last episodes of amazing digital circus
want to see devil wears prada 2 and other movies that have my favorite actress meryl streep
want to finish writing my godzilla fanfiction series or at least get it to a good stopping point
want a friend to read the story and tell me what they think
fear
survival instinct when i try
dont want someone i love to be sad i am gone

if there is any interests you have, things to wait for or people you care about. maybe that can be a reason to stay? most of my reasons are very little things like wanting to listen to a new song or see a new show or something. if you want to live, then any reason can be enough. if you can just find it. i hope you can find something and will be okay. i hope this is helpful i really myself struggle to stay around too but i wanted to try to help
 
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nails

wait i'm goated
Feb 12, 2023
379
personally, i'm afraid of failing again. plus, the timing is always off because i'm almost never alone. mostly the first thing, though.

anyway, it's nice that you're trying to stay. i can't provide you with specific reasons to stay because idk your situation. most people stay for family, friends, and pets. if loved ones are out of the question, then personal goals can be something to look forward to. it can be a small, silly goal like finishing a new show, or a long-term goal like working towards your dream career or something. finding reasons to live could be it's own goal, along with general self improvement.
that was all very general advice, so i apologize if none of it applies to you. when it comes to having reasons to live, i'm probably the least qualified person to speak on the matter. regardless, i hope everything works out for you. the recovery section of the forum might be helpful.
wishing you the best.
 
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Lucid7972

Lucid7972

Member
Aug 28, 2023
39
fear of pain of DIY ctb, and swiss VAD has more requirements for young healthy applicants I can't fulfill
 
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Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
90
what are the main reasons stopping you from doing it right now. I'm asking because I'm looking for reasons not to rope myself.
Pulling some stuff together really. If I go now, people rely on me and they're fucked. So I'm getting affairs in order and giving time.
 
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trulyautistic

Member
Feb 14, 2026
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Hoping that things will get better.
Scared to hurt my mom.
Fear of the discomfort
fear of it not working
man i hope that things do get better for you.
don't want to make my housemate scared or sad when he finds me
wanting to finish a project i am doing with someone else
wanting to do my special interest/passion more
wanting to be around long enough to listen to the new noah kahan album in a few months
wanting to be around for the last episodes of amazing digital circus
want to see devil wears prada 2 and other movies that have my favorite actress meryl streep
want to finish writing my godzilla fanfiction series or at least get it to a good stopping point
want a friend to read the story and tell me what they think
fear
survival instinct when i try
dont want someone i love to be sad i am gone

if there is any interests you have, things to wait for or people you care about. maybe that can be a reason to stay? most of my reasons are very little things like wanting to listen to a new song or see a new show or something. if you want to live, then any reason can be enough. if you can just find it. i hope you can find something and will be okay. i hope this is helpful i really myself struggle to stay around too but i wanted to try to help
damn man that's pretty cool your making your own Godzilla fanfiction series i would like to take a look at it when you finish that sounds cool. most of my reasons are very little to for example wanting to finish one piece.
personally, i'm afraid of failing again. plus, the timing is always off because i'm almost never alone. mostly the first thing, though.

anyway, it's nice that you're trying to stay. i can't provide you with specific reasons to stay because idk your situation. most people stay for family, friends, and pets. if loved ones are out of the question, then personal goals can be something to look forward to. it can be a small, silly goal like finishing a new show, or a long-term goal like working towards your dream career or something. finding reasons to live could be it's own goal, along with general self improvement.
that was all very general advice, so i apologize if none of it applies to you. when it comes to having reasons to live, i'm probably the least qualified person to speak on the matter. regardless, i hope everything works out for you. the recovery section of the forum might be helpful.
wishing you the best.
thank you man i really apricate it i dont really have any family but i do have pets and shows that i can look forward to so thats at least something.
 
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LastDayOnEarth

Student
May 20, 2025
176
I guess a bit of procrastination, fear of failing at it and a slight bit of hope for my life.

But the main one is the lack of a method with a 100% success rate on my hands, I just wished dying was easier
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,229
No, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the terrible mistake of existence that just causes all of this cruelty, harm, suffering and torture with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to suffer in this existence is always the most torturous burden to me, for me only non-existence is positive.

Only in non-existence will I be at peace from this evil existence of dreadful suffering where every second existing beings are tortured in agony, this existence should never had been imposed and it's so terrible how it was, existence truly is the most terrible cruel mistake to me and no matter what I'd prefer the peace of non-existence over decades of more torture and for me every second is torture to be conscious.

I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence in every way, it's so horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long just to face the torture and agony of old age, I only continue to suffer as a result of existing in this horrific anti-suicide world where humans have made it into a crime to die painlessly, I always suffer so much from being denied painless, guaranteed death so finally I can be at peace from the abomination of existence, anti-suicide is just so evil to me, all that anti-suicide does is cause way more suffering, harm and torture.
 
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tomame

tomame

hopeless 💔
Dec 28, 2025
70
going to Hell 😭

that's the ONLY thing stopping me
 
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solely.pain

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Feb 14, 2026
5
I'm scared of it not working and causing me to be in more pain.
 
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sulvumnolo

Member
Jan 31, 2026
23
I can never shake the fear that I future version of myself would be grateful I didn't do it
 
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Leonard_Bangley39

Hate life but scared of death
Nov 6, 2025
121
because despite being suicidal, im still too scared of death. maybe im just a fraud of something. I dont like the idea of not existing anymore after dying, i dont like thinking about what will happen to my consciousness after. its kind of pathetic to claim to be suicidal but not actually want to die. its probably why ive taken up self harm so much. i get to cut all over my arms, and still get to live while venting all my stress
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,284
Fear of the discomfort
fear of it not working
Same. Even a flawless hanging is going to hurt my neck a lot. I've tried to step off the chair and it's just not happening. And just imagine surviving with a destroyed neck, scarring, internal bleeding, etc.. I think about hanging to comfort myself. I read about celebrities who have done it but I might as well read about people who have hit crazy snowboard tricks in the Olympics. Sure, it's possible, but that doesn't mean I can do it.
going to Hell 😭
I'd be lying if I said this wasn't still on my mind. But come on, it's impossible. We don't descend from Adam and Eve. Land animals didn't survive a recent global flood on a 600-year-old's boat. All the supposed interactions with God--prayer, sacraments, worship--are invisible. If everyone were just pretending, it would look the same. Oh, and there are wrong religions doing the same thing but God still chose to communicate through a religion. If the Omnipotent wanted to be heard, he would be.
 
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RosebyAnyName

RosebyAnyName

Staring at the ceiling for 6 hours
Nov 9, 2023
415
I'm waiting for something that I really want to have happen before attempting.

If you're trying to find a reason not to do it, then ask if you have something to look forward to, or if you could look for something to look forward to.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
147
damn man that's pretty cool your making your own Godzilla fanfiction series i would like to take a look at it when you finish that sounds cool. most of my reasons are very little to for example wanting to finish one piece.
thank you! it is based off somebody else's fan project of godzilla that isn't online anywhere right now and is very unknown, so i dont know how many people would be interested in my fanfictions since its different then the godzilla pretty much everyone knows, but i could still post a link if you want once i have enough of it done.

my reasons are little but if you are looking for reasons to stay then that is okay. how far are you in one peice? i never saw it but i want to it seems like something i would like and i heard theres a lot of episodes
 
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Warum

Member
Feb 11, 2026
23
I haven't found a reliable method for me yet, neither do I have the appropriate space to do so. I don't want to be found by anyone, it's hard to find a place like that. On top of that, there are some very, very little things I cling to. Nothing that could stop me in the end though. I need help in finding a place.
 
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trulyautistic

Member
Feb 14, 2026
9
No, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the terrible mistake of existence that just causes all of this cruelty, harm, suffering and torture with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to suffer in this existence is always the most torturous burden to me, for me only non-existence is positive.

Only in non-existence will I be at peace from this evil existence of dreadful suffering where every second existing beings are tortured in agony, this existence should never had been imposed and it's so terrible how it was, existence truly is the most terrible cruel mistake to me and no matter what I'd prefer the peace of non-existence over decades of more torture and for me every second is torture to be conscious.

I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence in every way, it's so horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long just to face the torture and agony of old age, I only continue to suffer as a result of existing in this horrific anti-suicide world where humans have made it into a crime to die painlessly, I always suffer so much from being denied painless, guaranteed death so finally I can be at peace from the abomination of existence, anti-suicide is just so evil to me, all that anti-suicide does is cause way more suffering, harm and torture.
damn man life is shit at some point there is nothing you can do to change your position and you just have to accept it hope you find peace on your journey man.
thank you! it is based off somebody else's fan project of godzilla that isn't online anywhere right now and is very unknown, so i dont know how many people would be interested in my fanfictions since its different then the godzilla pretty much everyone knows, but i could still post a link if you want once i have enough of it done.

my reasons are little but if you are looking for reasons to stay then that is okay. how far are you in one peice? i never saw it but i want to it seems like something i would like and i heard theres a lot of episodes
yes there a lot of episodes but i finished all the ones so now I'm just waiting for the new season. yea i would love to check it out once your done with the fanfiction.
going to Hell 😭

that's the ONLY thing stopping me
the fear of hell is brutal man but sometimes it feels like your already in it.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,284
My whole problem is cowardice--shrinking from every duty, not even maintaining self-care. I lean heavily on suicidal ideation but at this point I know I'm lying to myself.

"I'll buy a gun tomorrow" = "I'll buy the next 30min of relief thinking about how I'll buy a gun tomorrow." AND I KNOW IT WHEN I DO IT.

I'm so far from following through. My thoughts and actions are irrational. I think if I keep coping (posting, scrolling, looking at ads, reading about famous suicides on Wikipedia) someone will show up to give me a lethal injection. That's not gonna happen, bub.

The cure for despair is courage but I have none. Where are the benevolent web-scraping euthanasia squads who will see my posts and come deliver me?

Another cope: hanging. I already have the supplies so I think okay, I'll do it tonight and I won't have to go buy a gun after all. But I know how much it hurts! I know how little pain it takes to stand back up during partial. I know what it's like to stand on the chair and be turned back by the pain of FSH.

So I vent my irrational thoughts here and buy a little relief. It's a kind of action, so it helps with anxiety. Not very much, though. I am so deep into mental illness. I barely respond to posts here, just vent, me me me. Thanks for putting up with it.
 
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trulyautistic

Member
Feb 14, 2026
9
My whole problem is cowardice--shrinking from every duty, not even maintaining self-care. I lean heavily on suicidal ideation but at this point I know I'm lying to myself.

"I'll buy a gun tomorrow" = "I'll buy the next 30min of relief thinking about how I'll buy a gun tomorrow." AND I KNOW IT WHEN I DO IT.

I'm so far from following through. My thoughts and actions are irrational. I think if I keep coping (posting, scrolling, looking at ads, reading about famous suicides on Wikipedia) someone will show up to give me a lethal injection. That's not gonna happen, bub.

The cure for despair is courage but I have none. Where are the benevolent web-scraping euthanasia squads who will see my posts and come deliver me?

Another cope: hanging. I already have the supplies so I think okay, I'll do it tonight and I won't have to go buy a gun after all. But I know how much it hurts! I know how little pain it takes to stand back up during partial. I know what it's like to stand on the chair and be turned back by the pain of FSH.

So I vent my irrational thoughts here and buy a little relief. It's a kind of action, so it helps with anxiety. Not very much, though. I am so deep into mental illness. I barely respond to posts here, just vent, me me me. Thanks for putting up with it.
crazy man i get how you feel its hard to go through with it may i ask how come you want to do it.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,690
Waiting for my Dad to go first. I suspect fear of failing an attempt and fear of pain may then put me off afterwards.

Plus, I'll need some time to try and get all the paperwork shit of it done- information about my will, bills, accounts to hand. Tax return crap up to date, contracts paid off. Death is going to be as tedious as life it seems.
 
OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,284
may i ask how come you want to do it.
I'm a 36yo manchild who lives at home. I dropped out of college. I have no skills. I have no hope of a social or romantic life. I have crushing shame over things I've done and said since high school. I just want to be unconscious.
 
dead dav

dead dav

Specialist
Feb 27, 2025
333
Fear of failure not quite got the bottle to do it been close but just can't step off the stool
 
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