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kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
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I just afraid to imagine what would happen after. Or maybe I just procrastinate too much.

I still had some hope left and don't want to stop experience things. Sometimes I had periods when I feel "okay".

But I think I just scared of uncertainty (?). I don't believe in afterlife, but still afraid of nothingness. And, of course, I don't want to hurt my family and friends.
 
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vascomorrow

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Feb 11, 2026
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what are the main reasons stopping you from doing it right now. I'm asking because I'm looking for reasons not to rope myself.
I found my friends brother in the woods 20 years ago. He hung himself off a fallen tree. It was disgusting he was bloated.

It was traumatizing.

I would not want to traumatize anyone who would find me like that.
 
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killdozer

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Dec 6, 2025
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Family would be sad but i doubt ive even been worth being around recently so maybe they wont be too mad, need to get revenge, I want to try hard drugs
 
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witchcraft

witchcraft

it's too painful to live but I'm too afraid to die
Nov 27, 2024
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Fear and uncertainty is the major one.

Two... is a bit specific, but I am a big Lord of the Rings fan, and the scene where Theoden has to bury his own son always really stuck with me. I don't want to put my parents through that, regardless of whether I'll be around to give a shit about it or not, so I'm waiting until they die.
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
681
My parents are still alive. I postponed my ctb for years because of them, but recently my health issues worsened and I cannot live with this pain and loneliness anymore. Sorry mom and dad, I tried...
 
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DonLockwood

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Jan 22, 2026
16
A genuine hope that something randomly good hops into my life, or I somehow kick my ass into gear. Also my parents, they really do love me but I just cant see a future that I want to live in. I dont want to put them in a situation where they have to bury their own son.

Its also impossible for me to get the pressure points right lol
 
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trulyautistic

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Feb 14, 2026
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I just afraid to imagine what would happen after. Or maybe I just procrastinate too much.

I still had some hope left and don't want to stop experience things. Sometimes I had periods when I feel "okay".

But I think I just scared of uncertainty (?). I don't believe in afterlife, but still afraid of nothingness. And, of course, I don't want to hurt my family and friends.
yea i understand where your coming from somedays i feel fine to its just random where the loneliness hits me extra hard. thats good that you have family and friends.
 
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