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Cauliflour

Cauliflour

I am the doodler, all praise MS Paint!
Mar 24, 2025
866
19 which i currently am i do not want to go past this point it's too hard
Yeah older people just expect you to deal with all these sudden big changes and then throw a fit if you decide to "take the easy way out" and kill yourself. Also doesn't help that they keep fucking up the planet and we have to deal with the consequences while they keep going on about "how easy the younger generation have it".
 
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PeaceSeeker83

Specialist
Jul 23, 2026
310
What's being 30 like? Some people say you're still in your youth but others say you're halfway in the grave...
Just saw a post where somebody has a 98 year old grandmother. 30 is young. You are in your young prime. However, having said that it is still 30 years on this planet in itself. Regardless of viewpoints, I think a lot of us will agree life is far too long based on the real possibility of living to 72 at bare minimum realistically.
 
tiramisu

tiramisu

severely autistic
Jun 1, 2026
71
i'm pretty sure i'll ctb by my birthday at the latest.
 
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LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
366
30 Is my limit, don't wanna go any further than that.
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

I wish the ring had never come to me
Mar 9, 2024
1,827
It keeps going up as I keep missing the deadlines. 25 was supposed to be the max, but in a little over a month I'll be turning 26 so....I was thinking of CTBing the night before my birthday but I can't ethically do it due to its unfortunate timing with my brother's trip (my brother is the person I'm closest to and also the person who will be dealing with my will/belongings/etc.). Now the new deadline is 30 but my life has gotten so tolerable at this point that who knows.
 
Rihan

Rihan

Vanitas vanitatum, et omnia vanitas
Jan 11, 2026
89
I hope to never live to see my 25th birthday.
 
oneirataxia

oneirataxia

I feel the gravity of it all.
Apr 22, 2024
527
I don't really know. It is what it is.
 
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lostinthecha0s

lostinthecha0s

Borrowed time.
Jul 29, 2026
36
I never thought I'd live past 18, I regret living past 18 but I'm 27 now. Might as well see it to 30.
 
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PeaceSeeker83

Specialist
Jul 23, 2026
310
Part of the problem is not knowing what age you will live to without deleting.
 
rorosbones

rorosbones

i want to sleep forever
Oct 12, 2025
38
i keep saying i don't want to make it to my 21st, but that's not looking very possible anymore. at most i'm hoping to die before 35
 
wreckedforever

wreckedforever

M | Any Prns | waiting for something?
Mar 25, 2026
29
I'm not quite sure, probably 23
 
Spite

Spite

I wish I never existed.
Aug 20, 2025
706
I think I'll be dead at 35. Dunno why. I just feel like that's the age I am meant to live to. Right now I'm 28, so... I think I've got about 7 years to go.

It freaks me out a bit thinking I am probably three quarters of the way through my life already.
 
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Shallow23

Member
Jan 18, 2026
18
I hope to be able to before my next birthday if I can get the courage to so 25
 

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