Cauliflour
I am the doodler, all praise MS Paint!
- Mar 24, 2025
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I can't see myself getting past my early 40s and I'm perfectly fine with that. If I start pushing 45 and still alive then I'll be getting really agitated. Besides, I think by then I'll have all the projects I wanna make made and if I keep self harming at the rate I'm at then I'll be covered in stitches by my 40s anyway with my wrists gone floppy. Also life just seems to get depressing when you reach middle age: people start dying off, healthy living really matters so no more picky eating, hormones start fucking you over, detachment from the younger generation and I'd much rather just die young but not so young that the media starts going on about how much of a "tragedy" it is like they always do whenever a pretty girl in her teens/20s commits suicide. I don't want kids so no worries of traumatising children, it's a great plan! ...apart from my parents. They'd be retirement age at this point and all 4 of my grandparents are still alive so they'd probably still be alive too with these genes. They'd be really sad if they outlived me.
Makes me wonder how the older people on here have the will to keep going. If I woke up one day and 50 years of my life had passed, there's no way I'm sticking around.
Makes me wonder how the older people on here have the will to keep going. If I woke up one day and 50 years of my life had passed, there's no way I'm sticking around.
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). That said, even with therapy—and I'm in therapy—sometimes it doesn't make a difference. But you can find hope in life one way or another, with or without therapy 
