Discussion what about people who care

[avstin]

This is mainly a question for people with partners or family who love them. How do you cope with the thought of leaving them behind? Do you even think about it?

 

[MyLifeisHell]

I don't feel any guilt at all, at least not to the level that would pose an obstacle.

If at least one person honestly told me they shed at least one single vicarious tear over the pain of my neurological ailment I would reconsider suicide for good.

 

[scordatura]

I feel bad, but not enough to not do it. I feel they would finally understand that my suffering was real, and that's what makes me okay with it.

I get upset knowing how one person in particular would be completely broken and un-repairable, but she has my sisters and grand kids to be there for her.

One other person, would also be hurt and likely shocked, he knows I'm suicidal, but I doubt he thinks I would do it. He's a really caring person and has tried to help me a lot despite the hassle I've caused. I believe he is fed up and maybe angry with me but he still cares, and not only for me. I think he'd feel like he never did enough, which is untrue, as he's tried to help me more than anyone.

I wish I could let them save me, but unfortunately the shit I've dealt with just feels irrepairable, and as a result I do not like the person I have become. The only thing that could save me, would be if they could go back and stop the things happening that broke me down in the first place.

 

[FamilialBlackSheep]

I have a partner who has told me directly she would never recover if I was to CTB and it certainly has an impact on my desire to rid myself of the pain but I dont think it could be enough to fully stop me. If anything I wish I could gain the courage and secure method to get the job done before I bring in more people to be hurt in the wake of my choice. I know many see it as a selfish act and I wish more would understand what living with this condition is like but I can only imagine how hard it must be to conceptualize if you haven't felt like this.

 

[rlllyydepressed]

I think I'm past the point of feeling bad I don't have many people that would care but the ones I try to hopefully make them understand in my notes

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's enough to stop me doing it. I'm trying to hold on for it not to upset my Dad. If my circumstances nose dive though- who knows? It's a balance as I see it. Sometimes I think our circumstances outweigh their grief. And truthfully- if they truly do love us- shouldn't they be relieved for us not to be suffering anymore? Why would they actually want a loved one to stay here and suffer? There ought to be compassion on both sides.

 

[Sr Red]

I don't feel any guilt at all, at least not to the level that would pose an obstacle.

If at least one person honestly told me they shed at least one single vicarious tear over the pain of my neurological ailment I would reconsider suicide for good.

I have a neurological ailment too, i underesrand yoo, the worst are some family members coments o they dont say anithyng, my parents yes. I feel bad for my parents they wona loose his only child

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

I feel guilty at the prospect of making them sad before I remember that their lives will objectively be better without me in them

 

[Chairbed3]

I think I don't feel that anymore. Also, I feel like my mother would understand. She might grieve me for years. My father though, I wish I could see his face after he recieves my death news. Sometimes I wonder if he is capable of feeling true grief.

 

[IsolatedChaos]

My loved ones know of my struggles for over a decade. I know it will hurt, and it's a shame that it would, but a part of me wants to believe they'll understand why I did it, and appreciate the fighting I did do before it came to this. I'm a big girl and I can make my own decisions. They may mourn how good things *could* have been for me, but I also know there will be an understanding, hopefully even a tinge of relief, over the fact that I'm not suffering anymore.

 

[kouna]

My parents will definitely be devastated, especially my mother. I don't think my brother will particularly care.
However, my psychological state is such that I must go ASAP.

 

[orvreader]

I've only ever served to hurt and weight them down, me being born was the worst thing to happen to everyone around me. So I actually want them to grieve me a little, as some little validation that I wasn't just a net negative on this world despite the fact that I undeniably am.