Well its... another day....

[Livingvsdying25]

Just went and ubered to get my medication from the pharmacy. I'm glad I did bc aside from feeling weak it's also really hot outside.

Soo just took my 3am and 9am scheduled meds.

I slept ok?? I had vivid dreams but I don't remember any of the context so that's nice...

My worker is scheduled to come at like 12pm...haven't showered for maybe most of the week not sure if I want my worker here. Im aware she goes into to peoples places that are struggling but I've always felt very uncomfortable having people in my place/space when it or I am not clean..

I want to clean today. I like cleaning on Fridays and just having a relaxing, clean space for the weekend. Plus even tho it isnt that that dirty its bothering me soo...

Haaa well just took my ADHD meds so shall see how it goes but honestly? I'm lazy as hell rn... or just tired or hell maybe even sick or smthin...

Want to just go back to sleep.

Will see how I feel its around 10am now and if ima cancel I should cancel soon.


Sighhhsss I feel no amount of enthusiasm, vigor, energy or high regard towards being alive today. I just feel tired of everything.


Upon further consideration I might either be a little sick or like experiencing that sickness after physical activity...

I think I'm just gonna meet my worker online tbh... I dunno anymore honestly sometimes she helps me take down the garbage & I'd be lying if I said I didn't need that kinda help today...


I don't like letting other's see me while I'm down & out but... well... here I am... so...