Stopped my meds the day before I planned to ctb. 3 days (and no meds) later, I feel mostly great

[undecidedfool]

I didn't take my psych meds the night before I planned to ctb to ensure that I'd be in a shitty enough mood to do it (if that makes sense). The day I meant to ctb I couldn't be bothered because I was too depressed. Now it's been a few days and most of the withdrawal symptoms are subsiding, and I'm starting to feel really good.
I know the odds of it being mania are like 99%, but I'm just pretending that this is what it always feels like to be off meds. I know logically that I'll crash sooner or later, but fuck it, I'm enjoying being able to laugh and eat and talk to people like a normal human being right now. (Maybe a little more than average, but still).
I don't even know where I'm going with this, but I can't really tell anyone irl that I'm off all of my meds, so I have to ramble somewhere ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯