was trying to recover, failed (ordering more SN)

[bambibambam]

hi all,

i'm not sure if anyone remembers me (i see a lot of new faces here haha) but i used to be very active last year, my last ctb attempt (SN) failed after i was discovered and i was unfortunately institutionalized for a bit and during that time i was forcing myself to recover. my then boyfriend at the time forced me to dump the remaining SN i had in a river which was honestly hard because knowing that i had an exit from this world was the most comforting thing to me…but anyways, i decided that i will be ordering more SN because i realized that i no longer want to be in a world like this anymore, and the mental healthcare system has failed me and many others. i wanted to wait until i turned 22 (end of september) but i don't think i want to be around for that long, i want it to be over sooner..but anyways i missed you all so much. you were all so lovely to me and i hope we can catch up! ohh and another thing ;; just because my mental health recovery didn't go the way i hoped it doesn't mean that others should lose faith in their own path. everyone's experiences is different but for me it simply just didn't work out.

 

[Dayrain]

I remember you from your pfp.

i'm not sure if anyone remembers me

 

[bankai]

Well, well, well. Is that a Shoko PFP? Welcome back.



I just made this thread some time ago.please have a look

Has anyone watched the anime A Silent Voice?

Otherwise known as Koe no katachi. So I can't really watch this anime without bursting into tears. It's about a girl who's deaf and can't hear anything. And a guy who bullies her. I won't say any more. But man oh man, is it worth watching.Please watch. I'm watching it right now for the third time.

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[bambibambam]

I remember you from your pfp.

ahhh, hello!!

Well, well, well. Is that a Shoko PFP? Welcome back.Good to see you doing well.



I just made this thread some time ago.please have a look

Has anyone watched the anime A Silent Voice?

Otherwise known as Koe no katachi. So I can't really watch this anime without bursting into tears. It's about a girl who's deaf and can't hear anything. And a guy who bullies her. I won't say any more. But man oh man, is it worth watching.Please watch. I'm watching it right now for the third time.

sanctioned-suicide.net

hello!! yes yes yes. a silent voice is my all time favorite movie. i'm glad someone else enjoys it as much as me ♡ i think i will watch it again!

 

[Persik]

Hi. Can you share why you don't want to live?

 

[Dot]

Good to see you doing well.

U mght nd 2 rd thru thr pst agn

 

[Sakura.]

bambibambam, it happened another time...


For some unknown reason, out of nowhere, for the first time in months, I remembered you only 3 or 4 hours ago...

There was no reason that made me remember you, but I did - and for the second time after such a situation you come back here after such a long time, completely unexpectedly...

***

Just these few hours ago I was wondering how you were doing, what your life is like, if you had gotten better...


I am so sorry that you didn't...

I am so sorry that you are suffering so much...

***

You still seem like such an wonderful person...

You absolutely don't deserve to suffer so much...

You deserve so much to be happy...


I'm so sorry...

 

[bankai]

U mght nd 2 rd thru thr pst agn

Yeah, thanks. I edited it a bit. Dot you do gooder

 

[bambibambam]

bambibambam, it happened another time...


For some unknown reason, out of nowhere, for the first time in months, I remembered you only 3 or 4 hours ago...

There was no reason that made me remember you, but I did - and for the second time after such a situation you come back here after such a long time, completely unexpectedly...

***

Just these few hours ago I was wondering how you were doing, what your life is like, if you had gotten better...


I am so sorry that you didn't...

I am so sorry that you are suffering so much...

***

You still seem like such an wonderful person...

You absolutely don't deserve to suffer so much...

You deserve so much to be happy...


I'm so sorry...

reading this fills my heart with so much warmth that i almost got a little emotional.
i love you so much stranger, and thank you for remembering me. ♡

 

[rozeske]

Hey bambi good to see you back and well, I know not as well as you had hoped but some of us were worried after your last abrupt disappearance in your attempt. Sorry things aren't going well for you but I hope you can make it work, still rooting for you <3

 

[troubledM]

hi, im new here.. You seem well liked around these parts <3 sorry things arent going well. i wish you nothing but the best

 

[bambibambam]

hi, im new here.. You seem well liked around these parts <3 sorry things arent going well. i wish you nothing but the best

welcome! i think you will love it here, the members here are like a little family to me and we all understand each other. if you ever want to chat i am one message away <3 i love you stranger

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Sorry to hear that you are still struggling. But please try to keep in mind that recovery is a long, and often difficult, road. Even if you believe you failed in it, there is always an option to try again if that is something you desire.

Also, if you ever want to chat, you can message me if you like. I've also struggled for a long time with trying to recover.