Wanting help but not really wanting it

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At first I wanted to get treatment for all this bullshit I've been dealing with and begged my parents for it, but now, I just don't want it at all, i already tried treatment many times and it didn't help, so why bother? Sometimes I think about getting worse and that's what I want. Someone wants to fix me but I just don't want them to put an effort into it, I'm basically hopeless. I just want to slit until my body just starts rotting.

 

[OrphicEnd]

The in-between are the most devastating, simply doing nothing consumes time, energy and money, the longer you wait, the more expensive and less effective a solution becomes. Best wishes I hope you find the solution you want