Discussion Wanting death but being terrible at dying

[4g1vvvven]

I've read the mega thread methods and the hundreds of pages in responses but clearly to no avail

The act of suicide seems prohibitively difficult, I have rope and have tried hanging but bail because of the pain and agonal breathing.

Hanging still seems the most feasible based on how common it is.

The people who accomplish the trendier PPH approved methods seem even more impressive.

Getting 8,000+ ppm of CO in a confined space seems very difficult

The peaceful poisons are very hard to come by and typically involve a regimen that only add to their complexity.

The inert gas methods are expensive, procurement seems easier than the poisons but the resources are by no means easy to obtain.

I keep getting drawn to the violent methods because of their simplicity but without access to firearms, train and jumping seem to be the obvious alternatives to hanging.

I know there are many posts looking for easy and quick methods, I don't want to make another one of those.

I am curious though, how do people actually succeed at suicide?

Not wanting do demoralise, do any of you have full confidence in any methods? If so how did you get there?

 

[mortuarymary]

Only 2 methods that's N or Gas myself in my car.
But ideally it's N. It's peaceful and quiet (I hope) that's the only confidence I have. SN is a no because of my gag reflexes etc.

 

[4g1vvvven]

Only 2 methods that's N or Gas myself in my car.
But ideally it's N. It's peaceful and quiet (I hope) that's the only confidence I have. SN is a no because of my gag reflexes etc.

Very hard one to obtain isn't it? I daydream about just finding a bottle

 

[mortuarymary]

Very hard one to obtain isn't it? I daydream about just finding a bottle

Apparently it's in Peru. How much it is I don't know. But anyone offering it to you via dark net is fake. Don't lose your money.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's horrible and cruel to me how it's purposely made so inaccessible and difficult for us to die, I see those who managed to succeed in ctb as certainly being so incredibly fortunate, I envy them so much. Ideally none of us should ever have to struggle to die, the option of a guaranteed, peaceful exit from this existence should be a human right.

 

[lachrymost]

I wish I could do it. I had every incentive to finish high school and desperately wanted to, but I never managed to do it despite many attempts. I wish I could drive, but I have spatial awareness issues that make that seemingly impossible. Unfortunately, I think suicide is one of those things I just can't do. And that's the worst, most heartbreaking blow yet.