Venting wanted to wait for my birthday and ctb after but it’s getting so hard

[hellno]

My birthday is on the 11th of november, and I wanted to wait with ctb until then but life is getting too hard. I'm really struggling with getting through every day and I can't do this anymore, my life feels like endless suffering. I haven't made a full plan yet but i'm gonna, I'll probably ctb very soon. I'm tired of fighting.

 

[Baldwin IV]

I feel you, sometimes it feels like an endless war.

 

[hellno]

I feel you, sometimes it feels like an endless war.

exactly.

 

[dmdmdm]

I think it's important to have a definite date in you mind to CTB. You managed to live at least about 7000 days, you'll be able to endure another 50 days. In that time, you can rethink your decision, make plans, minimalize failure and write some nice notes to people you like. Personally, I want to use E-Mails that will be sent in the future on a set date to write nice things to my family. Wish them good birthdays and write imaginary letters of how nicely my life goes as if I was just living abroad.

 

[hellno]

I think it's important to have a definite date in you mind to CTB. You managed to live at least about 7000 days, you'll be able to endure another 50 days. In that time, you can rethink your decision, make plans, minimalize failure and write some nice notes to people you like. Personally, I want to use E-Mails that will be sent in the future on a set date to write nice things to my family. Wish them good birthdays and write imaginary letters of how nicely my life goes as if I was just living abroad.

That's some good advice and I will definitely do the e-mail thing. Thank you

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it really can be so dreadful and torturous feeling trapped here when you just wish to permanently escape from all the suffering, I hope that you eventually find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[dmdmdm]

That's some good advice and I will definitely do the e-mail thing. Thank you

https://lettermelater.com/ I I don't know if it works tho I haven't tried it yet but I've come across it on SS as well but there are many functioning services I'm sure

 

[hellno]

https://lettermelater.com/ I I don't know if it works tho I haven't tried it yet but I've come across it on SS as well but there are many functioning services I'm sure

I just saw that in the gmail app you can also plan E-mails so i'll probably use that, thanks tho