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GQ_CTB
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- Apr 18, 2026
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Hi,
First time poster. I have been lurking here for months and been wanting to CTB for years. I took on the old saying of trying to follow my passion and I am now broke, fed up and tired of where middle age has gotten me to. I come from a horrible family and a narcissist mother who broke me and I have never been the same. Every day is a bloody struggle and I want to CTB.
There is more than enough water sources around me and I do not know swimming due to a childhood incident. I hence want to go the drowning route and believe it will be the best one for me. There are bridges, roads and even secluded water sources around me. I can only get the weaker NITRATE here in my country and I have suffered with medications all my life. At least my exit should be without ingesting more medicines or powders.
I intend to do it when rains will come in and not during summer as the water sources will be full and drowning will be easier. I have looked at the threads here and almost all talk of SN. There is a Drowning Megathread but it does not talk of drowning in open water, rivers, sea or whether its better to jump off a road/bridge into the water.
I also want to go the drowning way as I do not want my "family" to get to my body or get to do drama with it if it's found. I want to just merge with nature and never be found hopefully. Hence the drowning route...
All suggestions will be welcome and helpful for me to CTB.
Thanks
GQ (Go Quietly)
First time poster. I have been lurking here for months and been wanting to CTB for years. I took on the old saying of trying to follow my passion and I am now broke, fed up and tired of where middle age has gotten me to. I come from a horrible family and a narcissist mother who broke me and I have never been the same. Every day is a bloody struggle and I want to CTB.
There is more than enough water sources around me and I do not know swimming due to a childhood incident. I hence want to go the drowning route and believe it will be the best one for me. There are bridges, roads and even secluded water sources around me. I can only get the weaker NITRATE here in my country and I have suffered with medications all my life. At least my exit should be without ingesting more medicines or powders.
I intend to do it when rains will come in and not during summer as the water sources will be full and drowning will be easier. I have looked at the threads here and almost all talk of SN. There is a Drowning Megathread but it does not talk of drowning in open water, rivers, sea or whether its better to jump off a road/bridge into the water.
I also want to go the drowning way as I do not want my "family" to get to my body or get to do drama with it if it's found. I want to just merge with nature and never be found hopefully. Hence the drowning route...
All suggestions will be welcome and helpful for me to CTB.
Thanks
GQ (Go Quietly)