Venting I WANT TO DISAPPEAR. OCD is killing me (need advice)

[Pearl]

I need to talk to someone that knows places around me where I can go and disappear. Woods, abandoned bridges, large deep bodies of water. I am planning to take a bunch of Xanax + alcohol and drown in some remote lake or sea where no one goes and my body will become fish food or something ideally. I need help trying to figure out where I can go to do that because I am homebody living in a highly populated metropolitan area. I am willing to travel in state by car. Please help. I am in such excruciating amount of anguish due to my OCD I cant take it anymore.

 

[ipmanwc0]

Sorry to hear that, OCD is very hard to live with. You can try looking at maps to find such a place

 

[somiseriously]

I need to talk to someone that knows places around me where I can go and disappear. Woods, abandoned bridges, large deep bodies of water. I am planning to take a bunch of Xanax + alcohol and drown in some remote lake or sea where no one goes and my body will become fish food or something ideally. I need help trying to figure out where I can go to do that because I am homebody living in a highly populated metropolitan area. I am willing to travel in state by car. Please help. I am in such excruciating amount of anguish due to my OCD I cant take it anymore.

Where do u live

 

[diealegend24]

I need to talk to someone that knows places around me where I can go and disappear. Woods, abandoned bridges, large deep bodies of water. I am planning to take a bunch of Xanax + alcohol and drown in some remote lake or sea where no one goes and my body will become fish food or something ideally. I need help trying to figure out where I can go to do that because I am homebody living in a highly populated metropolitan area. I am willing to travel in state by car. Please help. I am in such excruciating amount of anguish due to my OCD I cant take it anymore.

Hey friend, I suffer from really bad OCD. Last year was one of the worst years of my life( so is this year). From morning till night I was constantly tortured by intrusive thoughts endlessly. It was honest a living nightmare. So I know how you feel. Even now I struggle with severe rumination, any slight disrespect from individual sends me down a spiral of rumination about the next time I get disrespected.

I hate life and just like you I wish to go to a place in the world where I can put an end to this story and never be found. Like disappearing and vanishing permanently with no trace of my body or whereabouts whatsoever.

Sad thing is deep down I don't want to go out like that, I truly don't. However life continues to get more difficult.

I hope both of us can live a potentially decent life and think back that it wasn't so bad. All best friend I hope your OCD gets better.

There are lots of resources out there maybe you can get better. Don't give up just yet.

 

[Pearl]

Hey friend, I suffer from really bad OCD. Last year was one of the worst years of my life( so is this year). From morning till night I was constantly tortured by intrusive thoughts endlessly. It was honest a living nightmare. So I know how you feel. Even now I struggle with severe rumination, any slight disrespect from individual sends me down a spiral of rumination about the next time I get disrespected.

I hate life and just like you I wish to go to a place in the world where I can put an end to this story and never be found. Like disappearing and vanishing permanently with no trace of my body or whereabouts whatsoever.

Sad thing is deep down I don't want to go out like that, I truly don't. However life continues to get more difficult.

I hope both of us can live a potentially decent life and think back that it wasn't so bad. All best friend I hope your OCD gets better.

There are lots of resources out there maybe you can get better. Don't give up just yet.

Thank you. I know deep down I hope one day ill wake up and ill be "normal" and ill want to live and look forward to another day but it's hard to keep up with how much mental anguish I am in daily.