I've been wanting to ctb since july 2023 but the first 4 months I wasn't sure I really want to and I found myself in this relationship but it's very toxic. We get along yes but Things get complicated I got involved in a love triangle fought to it and got this girl. But we're both depressed and we kinda fell I guess?
Anyways right now she healed and she keeps "saving" me when I try to ctb she encourages me to live but I wasn't sure if she's genuine I tried to ctb 4 times but she kept "saving" me to the point I couldn't leave her while also knowing that she might leave me and I couldn't live without her so I'd try to ctb again...
Or maybe I'm just overthinking too much... I don't know anymore I just feel lonely whenever I'm by myself. I'm burnt-out I guess?
Anyways right now she healed and she keeps "saving" me when I try to ctb she encourages me to live but I wasn't sure if she's genuine I tried to ctb 4 times but she kept "saving" me to the point I couldn't leave her while also knowing that she might leave me and I couldn't live without her so I'd try to ctb again...
Or maybe I'm just overthinking too much... I don't know anymore I just feel lonely whenever I'm by myself. I'm burnt-out I guess?
