When you wake up, and realize you didn't die in your sleep, and have to face another awful day in this hellish prison. That's got to be one of the worst feelings. And it happens every day too
Smaragdine
Member
- Mar 31, 2024
- 55
it is.
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cosmic_traveler
Eternal Spirit Experiencing a Human Moment
- Dec 23, 2023
- 311
Can't fall asleep because we can't stop thinking about CTB. Then we wake up and can't believe we're still somehow breathing. We will never truly know your specific pain, but we can certainly try and empathize. Be well on your journey and may the memory of your pain become dull with time.
Waking up is the most painful thing in the world and I have to do it every fucking day. It feels like getting smashed with a ton of bricks every time I realize I'm still alive.
I truly feel for you.
I truly feel for you.
february in alaska
wandering aimlessly
- Sep 13, 2023
- 465
Sometimes there's a TINY split second right after I wake up where it hasn't hit me yet and I get to feel exactly how "at peace" I am. And then it all hits me. Going through that exact feeling every day for years and years and years is a kind of hell I wouldn't wish on anybody
It seriously feels like a groundhog day/time loop situation. One big cycle. Every day you hope THIS is the last time, and it never is.
It seriously feels like a groundhog day/time loop situation. One big cycle. Every day you hope THIS is the last time, and it never is.
Exactly thats the worst part, it never ends. I wish I could get used to it at least. But it feels every day I still feel miserable and stuck in a life I don't want to live.
If only I could be somewhat content with my life then it wouldn't be as painful, but every day the suffering is still the same for years
february in alaska
wandering aimlessly
- Sep 13, 2023
- 465
I feel you. I wish I had the code for happiness cracked like normal people seem to. It's hard to even imagine what it must be like to live like that, and enjoy waking up in the morning, and look forward to things and have an intrinsic desire to keep going.
Yeah I am envious of people who wake up looking forward to life and happy people
For me happiness isn't even the goal anymore. I just want to wake up and not want to feel like complete shit, which is very rare. Even a day where i don't think about suicide at all is considered a big improvement and win for me
lita-lassi
let me spell it out for you: go to hell
- Sep 25, 2023
- 581
ijustwishtodie
death will be my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
- 5,202
I relate. I wish I died during my sleep too. Life is way too exhausting and painful for me
I wish I diedcin my sleep too.
davidtorez
Mage
- Mar 8, 2024
- 547
No point waking up or getting out of bed most days really
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,920
I understand, it really is so dreadful, I really wish there's the option to just fall into an dreamless, eternal sleep, it's cruel how we cannot just free ourselves from this cruel and futile existence in peace. Permanent non-existence certainly is all that's desirable to me, I find it tiring simply being conscious and aware.
AkitoSad
Member
- Mar 30, 2024
- 9
I disagree. I may hate my life and dread it but I want to choose and revel in the moment of my death. It's stupid, I know but I wanna do it on my own otherwise it won't be quite mine
