I was diagnosed with bipolar 1 in March of this year, and since then my entire world has turned to shit.
I was super outgoing; tons of friends, always outside, was great at skateboarding, my family loved my company, never in a million years would I have thought this is where I'd end up.
Now, the crippling depression has me feeling my life is truly over. There's a reason bipolar people have 10-30x higher chance to CTB. It's not a kind of low you can explain. It's a blanket of misery covering your entire life, where every waking moment seems like a challenge. I really miss drinking and smoking weed. I miss seeing my friends (most of them don't bother calling me anymore because I'm sober), I miss being outside. My medication has impacted my body so much that I can't skateboard anymore (severly weakens leg muscles). I can't fathom having a love life or any meaningful relationship with a woman. I'm fucking over it. I can't wait for my time to come
Thanks for listening. Mental illness is a bitch
I was super outgoing; tons of friends, always outside, was great at skateboarding, my family loved my company, never in a million years would I have thought this is where I'd end up.
Now, the crippling depression has me feeling my life is truly over. There's a reason bipolar people have 10-30x higher chance to CTB. It's not a kind of low you can explain. It's a blanket of misery covering your entire life, where every waking moment seems like a challenge. I really miss drinking and smoking weed. I miss seeing my friends (most of them don't bother calling me anymore because I'm sober), I miss being outside. My medication has impacted my body so much that I can't skateboard anymore (severly weakens leg muscles). I can't fathom having a love life or any meaningful relationship with a woman. I'm fucking over it. I can't wait for my time to come
Thanks for listening. Mental illness is a bitch
