Venting vent

[throwawayghm]

I hate this shit so much im a fuck up and will continue to be a fuck up till I die, I hate this cycle of self hate and guilt i just want it to end, every time I even make a little bit of progress I fall right back down to where I was or lower, there is no rock bottom there's just a giant hole that never ends ive tried to change and I cant ive tried my best but it isnt enough and will likely never be enough idk im tired and am thinking of quitting I don't deserve the opportunitys ive been given and wasted I dont deserve the people around me and I dont deserve life its waisted on me and I wish anyone else was me and I never existed im tired ill either live as another miserable ass fuck up or be a statistic that people will morn for a week then forget about, I don't think this life thing is for me, idk im so fucking tired like I barley have enough motivation or drive to work let alone get out of bed in the morning im not proud of it but I literally have to force myself to even do basic shit like brush my teeth and take a shower I dont even fold and hang my clothes anymore they just sit in a pile on my hamper and I grab what I need for the day I was really against any kinds of medication but rn I can use basically anything idk anymore, I rly want to kill myself but I know ill just puss out again

 

[SomeAdvice]

I am feeling the same way and I fear there is no way out. Like I am feeling guilty of having people attend my funeral. At this point I feel like if I fuck it up and live I will just continue to drag others down with me who will try to keep me afloat.

 

[LostZombie]

awww you poor little thing, it's okay I understand your pain. I do not deserve the love I get, and I just want to go; i wish it were easy for all of us to go. Everyone deserves a death because we cannot consent to being here, why should we be stopped from leaving. I hope find a source soon so you can get the rest you need