ive never drank or smoked ever but i bet my health is worse than those who do occasionally do those things.
recently my heart started to hurt very badly for the first time after having another episode of intense sadness. Small movements like bending over sends jolts of pain inside my chest. Or breathing a bit in too much.
Just wanted to vent how Its totally unfair to think if my health is actually worse than those who do "enjoy" life a bit more. Never got drunk at a party. (not saying its a bad thing but ive always wanted to do it and also just sad on missed opportunities and taking far worse consequences in the long term). Cuz depression is everyday 24/7 and i read in an article before its worse than cigarettes so yeah.
Too mentally stable to CTB, but too mentally unstable to be happy. Sigh. Its a never ending circle.
Also remember seeing its possible to die of intense sadness which was interesting. There's a name for it... hope ill get lucky next time. crossing my fingers.
Thanks for reading. Bye. Have a good day or night...
recently my heart started to hurt very badly for the first time after having another episode of intense sadness. Small movements like bending over sends jolts of pain inside my chest. Or breathing a bit in too much.
Just wanted to vent how Its totally unfair to think if my health is actually worse than those who do "enjoy" life a bit more. Never got drunk at a party. (not saying its a bad thing but ive always wanted to do it and also just sad on missed opportunities and taking far worse consequences in the long term). Cuz depression is everyday 24/7 and i read in an article before its worse than cigarettes so yeah.
Too mentally stable to CTB, but too mentally unstable to be happy. Sigh. Its a never ending circle.
Also remember seeing its possible to die of intense sadness which was interesting. There's a name for it... hope ill get lucky next time. crossing my fingers.
Thanks for reading. Bye. Have a good day or night...
