Venting Vent about my life being trash

[kitkatt]

Fuck rant may be more appropriate I'm just so fed up so absolutely FRUSTRATED by EVERYTHING. Want a boyfriend? To bad the men in your area are weird to you, you aren't attracted to them, or worse they're a bigger psycho then I am and I get my feelings HURT. Finally figure out what's wrong with me just to learn it something you can only fucking manage with medication. I am taking my medicine we've adjusted and now I get to feel awful and fucking terrible for what like 3 months is the standard of letting medication run its course to see FUCK ME. I have to force myself to go sleep earlier because I feel like a become an extra big insane person without the sleep but sometimes my body physically won't let me so that's great love that for me. Um fuck what else I of course have the big huge gaps in my memory and there's the general brain fog and constant dissociation. I'll forget things while talking about them lose my place in conversations I'm having it's tough. Then there's the paranoia thoughts then just excessive racing thoughts and I hate it so much. I don't like paranoid and having a short fuse and withdrawing from life. Not that I have much to withdraw from since I'll be forever alone because dating is so awful and abysmal that there's no way I'll find someone who would be a good fit. Alright I guess that's all I wanted to complain about I'm going to go back to "enjoying" my rot day. I'm allowing myself to be miserable today because I feel like it I'll be productive tomorrow.

 

[Withered]

Yeah bro. I feel the sleep stuff. Sometimes the anxiety is so bad I pull all-nighters. Hope everything works out for you and that you find the right guy!

 

[cluefixphantom]

It's horrible to want someone, but for some reason, it just doesn't work out. I have nothing to do with dating in general because my only experience has been being rejected because of my disabled body. When you're considered ugly and r'tard, especially as a woman, society treats you like trash. You don't just face disadvantages in finding a partner. Life isn't a worth a thing then.

I waste my time and look into reddit, like r/foreveralonewomen or r/ugly. When I read that others have similar problems then I don't feel so much like I'm the only one getting screwed over.