I get this urge sometimes when I'm frustrated/suicidal/have other negative emotions to do *something* to myself or find some dangerous way to cope.
Once when I got this feeling, I overdosed on my antidepressants but made sure to not take that many as to not harm myself too severely. I went to the hospital the next day and was in the ER for a day, then the psych ward for a week. So something like that would be if I got to a really serious point where I wanted medical intervention, which I don't think I should do again for quite some time because it upset my family and my mom had to pay the hospital bill.
But I just feel like I want to abuse some sort of substance to cope. However I've always played it on the safe side when it comes to acquiring substances, like I'm 18 and in the US so I can't purchase alcohol and I don't own a fake id, and I've never purchased weed or illegal drugs from anyone. I could try cutting I guess but I don't have a great knife to do it with. I dunno man, it's probably for the best that I don't have access to an unhealthy way to cope but I sure as hell feel the urge to have one lol
Once when I got this feeling, I overdosed on my antidepressants but made sure to not take that many as to not harm myself too severely. I went to the hospital the next day and was in the ER for a day, then the psych ward for a week. So something like that would be if I got to a really serious point where I wanted medical intervention, which I don't think I should do again for quite some time because it upset my family and my mom had to pay the hospital bill.
But I just feel like I want to abuse some sort of substance to cope. However I've always played it on the safe side when it comes to acquiring substances, like I'm 18 and in the US so I can't purchase alcohol and I don't own a fake id, and I've never purchased weed or illegal drugs from anyone. I could try cutting I guess but I don't have a great knife to do it with. I dunno man, it's probably for the best that I don't have access to an unhealthy way to cope but I sure as hell feel the urge to have one lol
