Update.

[Alnilam]

I've decided against using the credit card that was created in my name, I don't want to leave any debt for my step father to pay, no matter how small. I have obtained a gift of 100$ in order to proceed with the deed, comfortably enough. I will make do with what the tools I have been given. Sadly, I had to deceive my mother in order to obtain this ''gift'', she does not know what it is for. I have not told her, but her generosity will lead to my demise and freedom from pain. In a way, it is bittersweet. Today I will start preparing my deathbed, first by decorating my room and then my body with what I have available. I realize my dream ''homecoming'' that I had planned, with the fanciful dress, hair and bedding is unrealistic and unobtainable within my means. Instead, I will use the money to buy what I need in order to ctb comfortably. Thank you all for your support, warmth, kindness and understanding, it is a comfort. My next post will be my last.

 

[leeloosnow]

i hope everything goes well for you my friend. i also had to get help for an unknown/questionable purchase some time ago, but that isn;t out of the norm for me. i just hope the person involved who offered doesn't realize what was what by the time it happens. i hope you are able to make time to give yourself the warm, comfortable, relaxing experience you deserve, and that you find peace and freedom from pain. thank you for being a part of this community that strengthens my own peace of mind. big hugs

 

[jodes2]

We'll miss you!

 

[Finding Sirius]

Good luck, I hope you find peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that when the time is right for you to leave, you find freedom from all suffering, best wishes.