Venting Unsure if being trans or the BPD will kill me in the end.

[VioletNebula]

Probably the two things i have struggled with the most- being trans and having gender dysphoria, and having Borderline Personality Disorder.
I hate how i missed out on the childhood i was supposed to have. I constantly feel in this weird in-between subsect of society and i just…
Borderline has me feeling like my brain is being fried 24/7. I get triggered off the slightest things, half the time they are made up scenarios in my head! I hate how my brain works and i cannot STAND living with it for another moment. I cant take it anymore.
If only things had been different. Oh well.
its funny. I wish i had a different body AND a different brain, almost like i wish i was someone else. I've… I've given up on this vessel.

Can anyone else relate?

 

[ForgottenAgain]

I relate to the borderline part. I'm constantly imagining awful scenarios and suffering because of that - like imagining that my sister dies and how I would deal with the bureaucracy and pain, and the same about my own death.

Nowadays I cry easily.