Unfit for human living

[thankyou]

Statement in the title. I am too genetically damaged and environmentally traumatized to live. I can't work, maintain relationships, enjoy activities, and I'm a drain on any romantic partner I have. Im a drain on society actually.

I barely have enough motivation to make this post.

Authorities stole my SN and connected me with abhorrent help with made everything 100x times worse. Thanks to them for ensuring ending my life is riskier than it should be. If hanging myself results in brain damage they can send the hospital bill to the crisis counselors. I want to jump but due to autism it's way too painfully overstimulating to go through that plan. I've been practicing my hanging and I likely will be gone within the next month. Might do a combination of pills and hanging so that I can ensure health workers won't feel the need to keep me on life support in case I fail at hanging because my body will be too damaged. Thanks to everyone here and sorry you all are here in the first place. Remember it's not your failing, it's society's.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really so horrible what has happened to you, I hate how humans create so much harm in this world by denying people a more dignified way to reliably die, it's so inhumane to leave people with no choice but to resort to more risky methods. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you are searching for.

 

[lachrymost]

Why can't the help at least be useless, instead of actively harmful? I'm so sorry. It's such bullshit.

"Too genetically damaged and environmentally traumatized to live" really resonates. Me too.

 

[Huntfish34]

Dang, damn. Sadly I relate to much of this. I'm sorry to hear it.. Life on life's terms is Enough for me to Ctb, absolute Fckn Insanity. Sickening for sure.

I wish you the best in whatever may happen, Godspeed. - ♥

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Me too. Also due to autism. It's infuriating that they subjected you to their paternalistic and wildly disconnected vision of what you needed and confiscated your SN.