Unbearable emptiness

[Chabrychek]

It's like a black hole in your chest. Not just in the worst moments, you wake up with it. Literally, first feeling upon waking is an unimaginable pain. You wake up and your first thought is death.
I plan to do it in August, when I get everything sorted out, but this emptiness is sometimes so unbearable that I fight with myself not to do anything to myself right at that moment.
I don't know if it's symptom of BPD or depression, but it's something so terrible that it has sucked my whole life out of me

 

[Wojaczek]

everything is exhausting

 

[Salkak]

It's like a black hole in your chest. Not just in the worst moments, you wake up with it. Literally, first feeling upon waking is an unimaginable pain. You wake up and your first thought is death.
I plan to do it in August, when I get everything sorted out, but this emptiness is sometimes so unbearable that I fight with myself not to do anything to myself right at that moment.
I don't know if it's symptom of BPD or depression, but it's something so terrible that it has sucked my whole life out of me

I feel this too. Nothing fills my heart. There is always this unimaginable feeling of emptiness. I have bpd so it does make sense . It's too painful. I feel sorry for you

 

[inara_9]

This describes me rn...I'm sorry that you're going through this my dear I wish us all healing