Venting UGH

[MikUma]

I cant wait to die guys like i genuinely hate myself and my life and i wish that i never was born i dont care i was a "rainbow baby" i dont care that i was first born but i cant wait to die i cant wait to jump off a cliff or hang from a rope or drown myself in gasses i hate myslef and my life and i dont care what life is about because who fucking cares im happy for those who love life but i dont see a point in it i love my friends and i love music but i love the thought of myself dying a thousand times more i cant wait to kill myself or catch the buss or kick the bucket i dont vare as long as i die i will be happy then its been 6 and a half years since i came intk this hell hole of shit and i hate it so much i hate it i hate it i hate it i dont care i hate it all i want to iill myself so bad and i know you guys understand so i cant say "you dont understand" but i hate myself so much more than words can describe and i cant just type out how much i want to just shove a gun down my throat and shoot nyself because i want to do it so bad but i have to wait until may and i hate myself and i hate this life i want to hlget out i want to get out i want to get out i hate it i hate it i hate it i dont even have a bad life and im spoiled and i have such a good life but i still esnt to die im so spoiled and thats why everyone hates me and i hate myself and j want to kill myself and i wish people could just iill me or friends could kill me or if i killed myself those years ago two years ago when i said i wiuld kill nyself just please i want to die

 

[mortuarymary]

You are CTB because you hate yourself?

 

[MikUma]

You are CTB because you hate yourself?

and bevause life sucks LMAO

 

[mortuarymary]

Life does suck. But not enough to kill myself.
now tell me about the funny eyed snowman pic

 

[MikUma]

:) i work at an elementary school and i made this with the classroom i shadow with my kids in the class

 

[The Ninth God]

:) i work at an elementary school and i made this with the classroom i shadow with my kids in the class

That's actually a very derpy and cute snowman lol

I think that you may consider taking some time to analyze why you have so much self hatred. If you really want to CTB, make sure that's what you truly desire. I hated and feared myself when I was younger, wanted both someone to come and give me "my heart desire" and dying every night, I screamed to just let me be what I wanted to be or just kill me. I ended up realizing I always been what I desired, I was unable to understand it and hated myself all the time...for nothing. I punished myself for things that weren't my fault and ironically hated what I didn't know was exactly what I wanted to be. Pain blinds you if you can't deal with it, that's why you want to be sure about similar choices.