Venting tylenol thursday!

[DewDr0p]

disclaimer: yes i know paracetamol wont kill me, just humiliate me. it is more of an elaborate act of self harm.

i spent this afternoon with friends and uh. yeah. so sorry to them but i need to suffer. the only reason i could spend the time with them was because i had done some cutting on my thighs and the rubbing of my jeans against the cuts was enough to ground me a little. as much as i enjoyed the conversations and planning, a lot of it felt so... performative? they are understanding that ive been kind of depressed recently and vanished off the face of the earth, they all have their struggles too. and i feel bad but. ive accepted it. the idea of not poisoning myself tomorrow genuinely fills me with so much despair. i cant. i have to do it.

so on thursday morning, whenever i wake up, hopefully early, around 6am, ill take at least 16g of paracetamol. then ill go do some responsibilities. then ill probs take around 160mg of excitalopram if i dont feel unwell enough. then ill wait another hour or two, as punishment, of course. then bus to the hopital. im so evil, this is so silly of me hahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha.

 

[carfemtanyl]

there are better ways to self harm that don't involve nuking your liver permanently
if you really wanna end in the hospital with a lower chance of fucking up your body, you can just take the 160mg of escitalopram
maybe read up on serotonin syndrome to know what you'll be getting yourself into

 

[ThisPartySucks]

there are better ways to self harm that don't involve nuking your liver permanently
if you really wanna end in the hospital with a lower chance of fucking up your body, you can just take the 160mg of escitalopram
maybe read up on serotonin syndrome to know what you'll be getting yourself into

are we encouraging non-methods now?