two failed SN attempts because I called for help

[Jadzia]

I've had two failed attempts with SN both because I asked for help. I don't remember asking for help the 2nd time. I have written about the 1st time already so look at my past posts if interested. 2nd attempt I ended up on a ventilator for nearly 4 days. Then another 3 days in ICU and 3 days on a normal ward. I ended up with pneumonia from the ventilator. I have severe ME which is a serious chornic illness and the whole experience has left me traumatised.

I actually thought I had no SN left after 1st overdose. I threw the bags away but I came across some while drunk. I took a lot of medication too. The first night on the ventilator my family were called at 3.30am to be prepared for me to die.

I won't be trying with SN again. I don't have anyway of getting it anyway now IC is not available. I think if I try again it will be amitriptypine and alcohol to knock me out quickly so I don't ask for help. I am so annoyed but I am not planning on trying again soon. I've upset too many people in my life with these attempts. I am trying new meds for my condition and hope I can improve a bit to make life less unbearable before considering it again.

 

[Huntfish34]

Damn wow, that's some pretty Damn heavy shit right there. Don't know if you have any specific plan for later. Or.. W/e. Thoughts and prayers to ya in life, Or whatever may happen.

You are Not alone. - ♥

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Failed attempts cause so much pain. It is so incredibly difficult to leave this world. But you are here with us now and you will have all the support you wish for here!! I wish you all the best and a fast recovery!

 

[looking_for_peace]

I'm really sorry you went through this and wish the best for your recovery. can I ask what other medicine did you take with the SN? or any factors you believe contributed to you calling for help without remembering?

 

[Jadzia]

I took metochoromide, a

I'm really sorry you went through this and wish the best for your recovery. can I ask what other medicine did you take with the SN? or any factors you believe contributed to you calling for help without remembering?

Sorry it sent to early. metocloromide, a lot of gin and lots of clonazepam

 

[90starve]

I've had two failed attempts with SN both because I asked for help. I don't remember asking for help the 2nd time. I have written about the 1st time already so look at my past posts if interested. 2nd attempt I ended up on a ventilator for nearly 4 days. Then another 3 days in ICU and 3 days on a normal ward. I ended up with pneumonia from the ventilator. I have severe ME which is a serious chornic illness and the whole experience has left me traumatised.

I actually thought I had no SN left after 1st overdose. I threw the bags away but I came across some while drunk. I took a lot of medication too. The first night on the ventilator my family were called at 3.30am to be prepared for me to die.

I won't be trying with SN again. I don't have anyway of getting it anyway now IC is not available. I think if I try again it will be amitriptypine and alcohol to knock me out quickly so I don't ask for help. I am so annoyed but I am not planning on trying again soon. I've upset too many people in my life with these attempts. I am trying new meds for my condition and hope I can improve a bit to make life less unbearable before considering it again.

unfortunately it sounds like SN isn't the method for you - that's okay. with time and patience, the right method will find you :)

thinking of you and sending hugs <3

 

[Slasher]

failed attempts are so horrible, the night after my first hanging was one of the worst days of my life and I wouldn't wish that on anyone. I am sorry you had to go trough this and I wish you the best of luck with your future <3

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so awful what you've been through, failing ctb is certainly what I would fear. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[soontobedone]

The idea of calling for help but not remembering it, is scary.

 

[dogtired]

I know this is a month old but how are you doing now? Are the new meds helping? I'd be interested in how your attempts have affected your ME if you have the spoons to answer. I also have ME which is the reason I'm suicidal - but worried about failing and making myself permanently more severe