calebzz1
What is it like to see single and clearly?
- Jan 6, 2024
- 181
Hello, I've had this post open for some time but I finally got around to reading everything.
I can relate to what you stated because I live with my mom who is on SSDI for mental illness and it can be a battle some days as she refuses to take her medication at times which leads to her getting quite nasty verbally both in-person and through text messages.
She is an emotional person, slamming doors and blaming everyone else for her problems.
Unfortunately, she can go full SaSu mode at a moment's notice and I simply don't know what to say because I'm going through so much too due to my poor sight.
My mom pulled two stunts.
The first stunt was her abusing DXM behind my back, due to her being high and incoherent I had to go to my cousin's house which was horrible because I could hardly see at the time.
I had to pack a bag too.
Then, I had to leave in the middle of the night.
The second stunt was when she decided to take a bunch of DXM, two THC Mello Yello edibles, was off her psychiatric medication for six days and a glass of wine.
I found the last part out a lot later.
This time, her behavior was a lot worse and she pretty much trashed a lot of the apartment and was doing way too much.
Apparently her reason was "self-sabotage" which made zero sense considering how her life was not that bad to be acting like a toddler.
I now understand why the family does not like her and wants zero contact as she is very unpredictable.
She had to be taken to the mental hospital but I remembered how peaceful everything was after the chaos and how I could truly enjoy my own company without drama.
I had a break for about two weeks.
All I want is a simple life due to being visually impaired and I can't stand when people do theatrics in addition to acting aggressive over literally nothing.
The main issue we have between each other is having different priorities right now.
My sole goal is to improve how I can see in order to get back to work, start community college and continue to learn how to drive.
I have a "hands-off" approach where I let my mom do whatever she wants and realizing that I can't be her caretaker since I'm barely functional at best.
If she messes up consistently and has another stunt, that's not my fault.
I'm not perfect though and age regress at times because my adult mind can't fully grasp the concept of not having, clear stable vision which has made everything a lot harder.
Unfortunately, I have had to become an involuntary NEET due to dealing with a complex visual impairment and I can't work for at least twelve months with no solid treatment plan.
Personally, I'm going for disability benefits because it will open up a lot of doors having a steady monthly income and I can move out with ease.
I would suggest getting a job and alternately disability benefits if they exist in Germany.
I have a great group of friends in person who can assist with moving.
The tricky part is if I should stay in the same apartment complex since the only bill that needs to be paid is electric and rent is relatively cheap.
I don't want her harassing me, though.
Finally, where is the GIF from that I see when you comment?
I low-key got scared because that's what exactly I romanticize when it comes to falling backwards.
I find it very sad.
I can relate to what you stated because I live with my mom who is on SSDI for mental illness and it can be a battle some days as she refuses to take her medication at times which leads to her getting quite nasty verbally both in-person and through text messages.
She is an emotional person, slamming doors and blaming everyone else for her problems.
Unfortunately, she can go full SaSu mode at a moment's notice and I simply don't know what to say because I'm going through so much too due to my poor sight.
My mom pulled two stunts.
The first stunt was her abusing DXM behind my back, due to her being high and incoherent I had to go to my cousin's house which was horrible because I could hardly see at the time.
I had to pack a bag too.
Then, I had to leave in the middle of the night.
The second stunt was when she decided to take a bunch of DXM, two THC Mello Yello edibles, was off her psychiatric medication for six days and a glass of wine.
I found the last part out a lot later.
This time, her behavior was a lot worse and she pretty much trashed a lot of the apartment and was doing way too much.
Apparently her reason was "self-sabotage" which made zero sense considering how her life was not that bad to be acting like a toddler.
I now understand why the family does not like her and wants zero contact as she is very unpredictable.
She had to be taken to the mental hospital but I remembered how peaceful everything was after the chaos and how I could truly enjoy my own company without drama.
I had a break for about two weeks.
All I want is a simple life due to being visually impaired and I can't stand when people do theatrics in addition to acting aggressive over literally nothing.
The main issue we have between each other is having different priorities right now.
My sole goal is to improve how I can see in order to get back to work, start community college and continue to learn how to drive.
I have a "hands-off" approach where I let my mom do whatever she wants and realizing that I can't be her caretaker since I'm barely functional at best.
If she messes up consistently and has another stunt, that's not my fault.
I'm not perfect though and age regress at times because my adult mind can't fully grasp the concept of not having, clear stable vision which has made everything a lot harder.
Unfortunately, I have had to become an involuntary NEET due to dealing with a complex visual impairment and I can't work for at least twelve months with no solid treatment plan.
Personally, I'm going for disability benefits because it will open up a lot of doors having a steady monthly income and I can move out with ease.
I would suggest getting a job and alternately disability benefits if they exist in Germany.
I have a great group of friends in person who can assist with moving.
The tricky part is if I should stay in the same apartment complex since the only bill that needs to be paid is electric and rent is relatively cheap.
I don't want her harassing me, though.
Finally, where is the GIF from that I see when you comment?
I low-key got scared because that's what exactly I romanticize when it comes to falling backwards.
I find it very sad.
