ilovecats1
Student
- Apr 15, 2026
- 109
i had a window where i was alone for almost two weeks and i tried psh twice but i failed. the first one i was kinda drunk but i prepared well for it. scheduled messages for my body to be recovered so my family wouldnt walk in on my dead body and left a note to them.
ive "tested" it before and i thought i had the position right but i couldnt get my carotids when i actually attempted. i tried like 10 times maybe changing positions and pushing but it was like i forgot everything i tested and after some time i got a very bad headache and gave up. after this i messaged one of my friends and i feel so stupid for this so now even my family knows some stuff idk how much or if they knew i attempted but a day later i tried again. i could find the position this time but my si was too strong when i was sober i think but i lost control of my body and started convulsing but i regained control and got out.
i might try "recovery" for the sake of people that care about me i think even if thats possible but i wish i'd gotten the sn from the post office instead of being scared of getting caught since i wasnt alone when i ordered it.
ive "tested" it before and i thought i had the position right but i couldnt get my carotids when i actually attempted. i tried like 10 times maybe changing positions and pushing but it was like i forgot everything i tested and after some time i got a very bad headache and gave up. after this i messaged one of my friends and i feel so stupid for this so now even my family knows some stuff idk how much or if they knew i attempted but a day later i tried again. i could find the position this time but my si was too strong when i was sober i think but i lost control of my body and started convulsing but i regained control and got out.
i might try "recovery" for the sake of people that care about me i think even if thats possible but i wish i'd gotten the sn from the post office instead of being scared of getting caught since i wasnt alone when i ordered it.
