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ihatethecia

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Here's a story for everyone. About twenty days ago I mixed like half the 50g bag of IC SN in 50 ml of water. I tried to get myself to drink it and had a sip in my mouth but spit it out. Basically immediately my heart started racing insanely fast , got dizzy, hands felt heavy and could barely move them. Started seeing flashes like I was gonna pass out. Oh yeah and confused as fuck. Slowly got better and went to sleep, next morning drove to ER. Let me know if anyone has tried a small amount of SN and if they had any lasting effects - and if it was IC
 
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That sounds really awful what you went through. I have never tried SN. I think that if I had it I would only take it if I planned to actually ctb. Thank you for sharing your experience.
 
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Well, I'm sorry that you had to go through that, you sound like you were afraid of lasting damage to the body. On the other side, I know that recent posts of concern of IC's quality has been shown by you that it in fact is legit SN. So thank you for that, even though it wasn't your intent---a lot of people now can rest easy knowing that you didn't even swallow a sip and yet you felt the effects. I hope you are doing ok. Do you notice any difference in how your body is behaving now? Are you able to urinate? (A poster stated they had taken SN and failed and wasn't able to urinate for a week).
 
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ihatethecia

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Well, I'm sorry that you had to go through that, you sound like you were afraid of lasting damage to the body. On the other side, I know that recent posts of concern of IC's quality has been shown by you that it in fact is legit SN. So thank you for that, even though it wasn't your intent---a lot of people now can rest easy knowing that you didn't even swallow a sip and yet you felt the effects. I hope you are doing ok. Do you notice any difference in how your body is behaving now? Are you able to urinate? (A poster stated they had taken SN and failed and wasn't able to urinate for a week).
I'm able to urinate , this was a month ago this happened , I've had chest pain , trouble exercising, fatigue, confusion, and my nails are super pale, I also feel like I might be getting hair loss, oh yeah muscle weakness and now I'm getting lack of circulation to hands and feet
 
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I'm able to urinate , this was a month ago this happened , I've had chest pain , trouble exercising, fatigue, confusion, and my nails are super pale, I also feel like I might be getting hair loss, oh yeah muscle weakness and now I'm getting lack of circulation to hands and feet
I don't know what to tell you. You should see a doctor if you're concerned. You said you went to the ER, did they do anything about it?
 
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ihatethecia

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Blood tests came back normal apparently, had an ekg and echocardiogram come back normal
Blood tests came back normal apparently, had an ekg and echocardiogram come back normal
Still panicked though
 
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oceansapart

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how much do you think you actually ingested?
 
PrincessInWhite

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I just want to sell out my funeral
Feb 21, 2019
641
Blood tests came back normal apparently, had an ekg and echocardiogram come back normal

Still panicked though
Echos can be "normal" and still miss things, mine did 😭 keep fighting if you believe something is wrong. Ask for a heart monitor to wear for a few weeks to catch abnormalities, one or two random EKG's will miss sooooo much. I'm so sorry you're dealing with this. sn Has been taken off my plate as an option for me due to delayed gastric emptying issues and I already have heart disease and autonomic dysfunction, this sounds absolutely horrifying. Everyone is so stuck on the fact it doesn't seem to cause brain damage (that we know of) but nobody focuses on the other possible effects. Everyone reacts differently, one person could recover fine, the next could have a situation like this.
 
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Jan 28, 2019
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how did you get SN from IC if you just joined 2 days ago? this source isn't posted openly on here and only available via pm with others
 
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veryhappyhuman

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Aug 25, 2021
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how did you get SN from IC if you just joined 2 days ago? this source isn't posted openly on here and only available via pm with others

I believe some of the older threads had (and still have) the full name on them. OP could've been a lurker for a while, as was I for about 2 years before I created my account here. For e.g. I knew where to get both SA and SN c. early 2020 despite not having an account at that point.

For OP and others: SN is a known carcinogen, and even very little amounts could kill, so PLEASE do not take it as a suicide gesture or if you aren't serious enough.
 
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Nzbus

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how did you get SN from IC if you just joined 2 days ago? this source isn't posted openly on here and only available via pm with others
I found IC just from lurking on here - it's not that difficult to follow the breadcrumbs people leave even when they think they're being discreet.
 
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Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
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I found IC just from lurking on here - it's not that difficult to follow the breadcrumbs people leave even when they think they're being discreet.
How? Because I lurked for two months before signing up and couldn't find it.
It's not like you can use the search bar an# I just searched the name in the search bar and nothing came up
 
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How? Because I lurked for two months before signing up and couldn't find it.
Someone posted the name of a site that sells exit bag paraphernalia. IC is directly linked from that site.
 
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Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
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I believe some of the older threads had (and still have) the full name on them. OP could've been a lurker for a while, as was I for about 2 years before I created my account here. For e.g. I knew where to get both SA and SN c. early 2020 despite not having an account at that point.

For OP and others: SN is a known carcinogen, and even very little amounts could kill, so PLEASE do not take it as a suicide gesture or if you aren't serious enough.
Maybe they found it before the rules changed and sources weren't able to be posted.
Someone posted the name of a site that sells exit bag paraphernalia. IC is directly linked from that site.
Ahhhh. Yep!
Yep yep
 
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ihatethecia

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Jun 17, 2022
69
well that's scary that ekg and echo can be normal and I could still have an issue. I knew I shouldn't have taken the SN but I really did want to CTB and chickened out
 
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Cathy Ames

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Mar 11, 2022
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Here's a story for everyone. About twenty days ago I mixed like half the 50g bag of IC SN in 50 ml of water. I tried to get myself to drink it and had a sip in my mouth but spit it out. Basically immediately my heart started racing insanely fast , got dizzy, hands felt heavy and could barely move them. Started seeing flashes like I was gonna pass out. Oh yeah and confused as fuck. Slowly got better and went to sleep, next morning drove to ER. Let me know if anyone has tried a small amount of SN and if they had any lasting effects - and if it was IC
So did you take any of the other drugs in the protocol--in particular the meto and/or the propranolol? Are you on any medications? This is a very strange story. SN is not absorbed until it gets into the small intestines. It seems like something else would have caused this, perhaps even the stress you were under at the time. You're kind of giving a great description of what a panic attack can feel like.
I'm able to urinate , this was a month ago this happened , I've had chest pain , trouble exercising, fatigue, confusion, and my nails are super pale, I also feel like I might be getting hair loss, oh yeah muscle weakness and now I'm getting lack of circulation to hands and feet
If the last time you went to the doctor was a month ago (after you spit out the SN without swallowing it), then you ought to go back again, especially if any of this is new to you and wasn't happening before.
 
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ihatethecia

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So did you take any of the other drugs in the protocol--in particular the meto and/or the propranolol? Are you on any medications? This is a very strange story. SN is not absorbed until it gets into the small intestines. It seems like something else would have caused this, perhaps even the stress you were under at the time. You're kind of giving a great description of what a panic attack can feel like.

If the last time you went to the doctor was a month ago (after you spit out the SN without swallowing it), then you ought to go back again, especially if any of this is new to you and wasn't happening before.
No I think SN can be absorbed through mucus membrane and I think I definitely swallowed a small amount , I mean a gram is lethal. I went to the doctors multiple times since. No I didn't take any of the other drugs. I mean isn't there even stories on this sight of people slathering the SN on their skin and it getting absorbed
Now I'm panicking daily thinking I destroyed my health or I'm gonna die later on, and I have to CTB
Seriously? I've never seen any such thing. Please show me that post and the one that said it would be absorbed through a mucous membrane during a very brief time spent in your mouth.
Oh no , there's no post of that , but I've seen posts of people slathering SN on their skin with DSMO, I mean maybe I'm wrong- it couldn't been that I simply swallowed some. I didn't rinse my mouth out and just spit it , falling asleep afterwards. I could've swallowed it , it was a whole sip and a gram is lethal
 
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No I think SN can be absorbed through mucus membrane and I think I definitely swallowed a small amount , I mean a gram is lethal. I went to the doctors multiple times since. No I didn't take any of the other drugs. I mean isn't there even stories on this sight of people slathering the SN on their skin and it getting absorbed
Now I'm panicking daily thinking I destroyed my health or I'm gonna die later on, and I have to CTB

Oh no , there's no post of that , but I've seen posts of people slathering SN on their skin with DSMO, I mean maybe I'm wrong- it couldn't been that I simply swallowed some. I didn't rinse my mouth out and just spit it , falling asleep afterwards. I could've swallowed it , it was a whole sip and a gram is lethal
Look... I'm sorry I sound mean. I just deleted that post but not soon enough. I truly do not believe the circumstances as you have described them have destroyed your health! The harm from this stuff is chiefly related to the methemoglobinemia, and your body is able to reverse that all on its own if the dose is small. People have taken enough to turn blue and still recovered from that without help.

Also, DMSO is a thing that does carry chemicals through the skin that wouldn't otherwise be absorbed. But you didn't have any DMSO, and I don't think you were soaking your body in the stuff or had it in your mouth for very long at all.

I believe your description of your problems and think you should go to the doctor and get those worked up. But I do not believe that you have done this to YOURSELF. If you only swallowed a small part of one mouthful, you didn't get a whole gram. Again. I'm not in any way dismissing that you are having symptoms, okay? I'm sorry you don't feel well. Please try to let go of the panic if you can because that is definitely not helping you.

P.S. Just FYI, panic attacks do give people very real and scary symptoms. When I said you had kinda described what panic attack was like... well... I was feeling very sympathetic because they really do suck. I just want to make sure you know that.
 
Judy Garland

Judy Garland

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Mar 23, 2022
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You're fine. Another thread........I counted five of the same threads for this user, and you just joined. Hmmm.......I wonder.....
 
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Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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Here's a story for everyone. About twenty days ago I mixed like half the 50g bag of IC SN in 50 ml of water. I tried to get myself to drink it and had a sip in my mouth but spit it out. Basically immediately my heart started racing insanely fast , got dizzy, hands felt heavy and could barely move them. Started seeing flashes like I was gonna pass out. Oh yeah and confused as fuck. Slowly got better and went to sleep, next morning drove to ER. Let me know if anyone has tried a small amount of SN and if they had any lasting effects - and if it was IC
i tried 400 mg SN but it was not IC. i took it all down and kept it down since it was a tiny amount less than 1 gram SN. I also got an insanely fast heartbeat but i think it took a couple of minutes? I guess it could get immediate fast heartbeat if you hold a larger amount in your mouth as it could get into your system sublingually.

I needed to test it to see if SN would work for me and boy it sure did . and i also wanted to test that brand. it was kind of old but still very powerful. i had no pain and no long lasting effects but i could tell it would do the job if i take 25 grams of SN. it's good knowing that SN will work for me to get me out of this hell.

i didn't get any long lasting effects just a damn powerful as hell psychological energy, from knowing the test i did was sucessful that SN is so powerful , that i felt that small amount just like people describe with the fast heartbeat , but most of all knowing that SN would work for me because i have digestion issues etc.
 
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i tried 400 mg SN but it was not IC. i took it all down and kept it down since it was a tiny amount less than 1 gram SN. I also got an insanely fast heartbeat but i think it took a couple of minutes? I guess it could get immediate fast heartbeat if you hold a larger amount in your mouth as it could get into your system sublingually.

I needed to test it to see if SN would work for me and boy it sure did . and i also wanted to test that brand. it was kind of old but still very powerful. i had no pain and no long lasting effects but i could tell it would do the job if i take 25 grams of SN. it's good knowing that SN will work for me to get me out of this hell.

i didn't get any long lasting effects just a damn powerful as hell psychological energy, from knowing the test i did was sucessful that SN is so powerful , that i felt that small amount just like people describe with the fast heartbeat , but most of all knowing that SN would work for me because i have digestion issues etc.
Did you get any of the other symptoms. ? PMed you
 

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