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Venting Tried hanging myself and failed

almostaghost

almostaghost

New Member
Nov 7, 2025
4
I'll admit, it was a desperate attempt. My actual date is January 6th (my birthday) but today was so unbearable because i remembered I'll probably never be loved again. I ruined my one and only chance. I'm an unattractive, autistic, depressed woman. Nobody wants me and i deeply believe a life without love isn't worth living. My family doesn't give a fuck about me and my friends are too busy living their lives.

I guess partial suspension isn't for me. Gonna try full suspension next time. But now my head and throat hurt like hell lmao

update: tried 2 more times and when i was almost fainting in the 3rd time, i was interrupted 😒 but that's okay, it's progress.
 
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3rdworldsadness

3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
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I'm unattractive, pos and living in lowslum like life and over everything im from toxic and 3rd world. And living with debt everyday is just another stuck in hell. I feel like my head throbs and migraine. Everything feels really heavy. People think I'm not capable of anything and I'm just a burden for them it was great mistake for birthing me I do think so too. And I feel guilty and repulsed all the time. I wish I just had a easy method...too. I am so sorry what happened to u i hope we can find peace.
 
lalaloopsie

lalaloopsie

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May 12, 2026
10
almostaghost said:
I'll admit, it was a desperate attempt. My actual date is January 6th (my birthday) but today was so unbearable because i remembered I'll probably never be loved again. I ruined my one and only chance. I'm an unattractive, autistic, depressed woman. Nobody wants me and i deeply believe a life without love isn't worth living. My family doesn't give a fuck about me and my friends are too busy living their lives.

I guess partial suspension isn't for me. Gonna try full suspension next time. But now my head and throat hurt like hell lmao
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I tried full suspension, I have more confidence in it. I can't do partial suspension here, I don't have an anchor point, but this has been my alternative for a while and the way I want to die. I hope I can find peace <3
 
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