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sadgirlallonherownn

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Sep 28, 2025
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Pretty much title, I have acquired SN and I plan on taking it in about an hour, T-9 minutes until I take my meto,. I'm honestly very antsy, like I'll finally be free soon, it's such an indescribable feeling, I won't have to suffer anymore, I can finally be happy. Thank you for everyone I met on here, while I wasn't on here for too long I still felt so comfortable here, being around like minded people where I finally was not judged for my mental health and it was very happy meeting you all, I love you guys and girls and nb pals, I hope you too will be able to find your peace when you need it, nobody deserves to suffer. As final wish ig I ask you to please finish my temple of time on the Minecraft server, I wasn't able to due to my depression but it's been my long time dream to finally rebuild the temple in Minecraft and it'd mean the world to me, thank you for being friends. I will update once I have taken my sn but then I will log out and just rest (hopefully eternally)
 
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zizzou

Forever young, I wanna be
Sep 25, 2025
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hope you find what you are looking for :)
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
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Yes thinking of you today.
 
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darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
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I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 
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sadgirlallonherownn

Member
Sep 28, 2025
51
Meto is taken, 45 minutes until SN
It's kind of a surreal feeling, knowing I'll be gone in about an hour, but it also feels so exciting and good
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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Meto is taken, 45 minutes until SN
It's kind of a surreal feeling, knowing I'll be gone in about an hour, but it also feels so exciting and good
You mentioned a partner doing this with you once. But by yourself now?
 
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Galahad

Seeking…
Mar 21, 2024
277
Pretty much title, I have acquired SN and I plan on taking it in about an hour, T-9 minutes until I take my meto,. I'm honestly very antsy, like I'll finally be free soon, it's such an indescribable feeling, I won't have to suffer anymore, I can finally be happy. Thank you for everyone I met on here, while I wasn't on here for too long I still felt so comfortable here, being around like minded people where I finally was not judged for my mental health and it was very happy meeting you all, I love you guys and girls and nb pals, I hope you too will be able to find your peace when you need it, nobody deserves to suffer. As final wish ig I ask you to please finish my temple of time on the Minecraft server, I wasn't able to due to my depression but it's been my long time dream to finally rebuild the temple in Minecraft and it'd mean the world to me, thank you for being friends. I will update once I have taken my sn but then I will log out and just rest (hopefully eternally)
Sending you much love and wishing you the peace you search for.
 
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sadgirlallonherownn

Member
Sep 28, 2025
51
You mentioned a partner doing this with you once. But by yourself now?
There was kind of a falling out and he hasn't responded to me in 2 days and now I just can't wait any longer
 
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Lone_Gray_Wolf

Fate plays chess with 2 queens
Aug 21, 2020
278
It's sad to see you go, but we wish you the best. This place will still be here, if you ever come back and if we part ways I hope you find peace.
 
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sadgirlallonherownn

Member
Sep 28, 2025
51
It's sad to see you go, but we wish you the best. This place will still be here, if you ever come back and if we part ways I hope you find peace.
Thank you, discovering this place was one of the best things to happen to me, it feels like a safe space
About to take it, please wish me luck
 
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rs929

Warlock
Dec 18, 2020
785
Thinking of you too
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
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OP has been quiet a long time now. Sending prayers for peace
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,164
I hope you find freedom from suffering, I wish you the best.
 
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Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
800
I hope you have found the peace you have been dreaming of 🖤
 
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Kitsuné_

Student
Sep 8, 2025
173
Thinking of you 🖤🖤🖤
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
702
I hope you are at peace now. Nothing will hurt you anymore🕯️
 
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Galahad

Seeking…
Mar 21, 2024
277
I have bittersweet sadness today.

Whilst I know she wanted to CTB, and had attempted many times before, my sadness is overwhelming this morning.

I know she made her SN and backup dose in a sealed bottle so it couldn't spill.

Her greatest fear was being saved and admitted to the psych ward, we must all hope for her sake that's not the case.

Farewell @sadgirlallonherownn and you were indeed on your own since your CTB partner was unreliable.

Her partner also had the Benzos she'd posted about so she roughed it with just Meto.


RIP ❤️
 
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vig919

The difficulty factor is disappointing
Oct 13, 2025
72
🕊️
 
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Corovaner

Experienced
Apr 15, 2025
202
I wish you peace in your journey.
 
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Dark Mood

Member
Oct 3, 2025
72
I wish you eternal peace
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
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Godspeed.
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
506
Rest in peace. I hope you found what you've been looking for.
 
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braintorture

2007 - 2025
Oct 19, 2025
152
I wish you eternal peace and no more suffering from this cruel world.
 
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badatparties

Elementalist
Mar 16, 2025
814
May you find eternal rest or happiness.
 
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