Tonight I will attempt tylenol overdose

[DeathSweetDeath]

Cant get a job, cant make money, cant drive, cant motivate myself, cant be smart enough to think of anything useful, cant think of good methods, cant afford good methods, cant be good at anything... The only last hope is maybe telling mom how i feel and MAYBE (big maybe here) getting to move to her place.

There's a world of difference between a situation where there is no hope and a situation where there's one last hope. Follow that hope, go after it, chase it. Do whatever you can to get out of that abusive situation and into your mother's. After that, you can take a deep breath & reassess the situation. I wish you all the luck in the world to get yourself into a situation where the choices you make, whatever they may be, won't be made out of desperation.