OhMyStars
The needle scratches a broken record
- Jun 25, 2025
- 11
I'll admit, I'm a little scared. I've been waiting for this moment and now that it's close, it's scary. I went out today, ate pizza, played my games instead of staring at the monitor this time. Everything feels to humane, like it's trying to keep anchored here. But that's probably just my brain doing stuff. I got an invite from a family friend for the fourth, I want to be able to see the people I love before I die but I'm scared of breaking in front of them, I'm scared of making everyone stop what they're doing to worry about me. I started covering my walls with the plastic sheets, I'm planning on getting as drunk as possible and then doing it. I'm pulling the trigger tomorrow, whether it's with the barrel in my own mouth or going out shooting with my family. Only time can tell what choice happens.
