Tomorrow's a visit to a psychiatrist

[ironrain]

Honestly, I'm already doubting it. I feel like I'm just a bad person, I shouldn't even be here. I'm so cringe, gosh. Anyway, I feel normal. It's just I'm looking for therapy for justification for me being a bitch and an insufferable person, and ctb for an easy way out.

Also I think I could easily get better and live a normal life but I want to suffer and don't want to do any work to improve my life. For some reason I don't want to be happy with what I can achieve. And I just love suffering and emotional self harm.

I have never been close to death but for me killing myself kinda feels like taking out trash. Like meh, useless anyway. The only thing that stops me is my family. Even my art doesn't really stop me anymore. But I don't want to traumatize my family just because I'm lazy and entitled.

So I'll see how it goes.

 

[babyneo1]

Be careful, you might get admitted to psych ward. Depends which country you in

I was admitted

 

[ironrain]

Be careful, you might get admitted to psych ward. Depends which country you in

I was admitted

I'm 99% sure I won't but thank you

 

[babyneo1]

I'm 99% sure I won't but thank you

Some countries have laws if you say to psychiatrist you are suicidal, they might be obligated to admit you if you are a danger to "others or yourself"

 

[morina]

I don't think I have ever replied to one of your threads but I have read multiple so far and you often say how bad of a person you think you are... And, well, of course I don't know how you act irl, so I am hardly a fitting judge, but on here, I think you are really kind. Idk, just wanted to say that, have a nice day. :) And good look with your appointment!

 

[ironrain]

I don't think I have ever replied to one of your threads but I have read multiple so far and you often say how bad of a person you think you are... And, well, of course I don't know how you act irl, so I am hardly a fitting judge, but on here, I think you are really kind. Idk, just wanted to say that, have a nice day. :) And good look with your appointment!

Thank you! I'm glad I'm not annoying for some people, I feel so annoying and insufferable. You have a good day too!

 

[Aflame5926]

i hope you get thing that actually help you and will not get disappointed. i hope that is your ticket to get out of it

 

[bl33ding_heart]

It's not necessarily that you enjoy your suffering. But you're so used to it so at the moment so it's all your mind knows. So imagining getting better and being happier can feel like it might be overwhelming or make you feel empty. Which is definitely very treatable with some form of therapy or medication. Life could be great for you if you get better, so why not give it a try? I hope things go well for you.

 

[morina]

Thank you! I'm glad I'm not annoying for some people, I feel so annoying and insufferable. You have a good day too!

Of course you don't have to reply if that's private or if you don't know yourself: Do you have an idea why you feel like you are annoying and insufferable? Just curious.

 

[ironrain]

Of course you don't have to reply if that's private or if you don't know yourself: Do you have an idea why you feel like you are annoying and insufferable? Just curious.

I'm lonely so I post here a lot because I want attention and I think it comes across as annoying.

I'm lonely so I post here a lot because I want attention and I think it comes across as annoying.

Well, that's not the only reason I post here. My thoughts here are genuine. But still I like the attention.

 

[morina]

I'm lonely so I post here a lot because I want attention and I think it comes across as annoying.

Well, that's not the only reason I post here. My thoughts here are genuine. But still I like the attention.

Nah I don't think people find that annoying. Like, many people on here are lonely and everyone likes attention. If everyone here mutually gives each other attention, I think that's a nice thing. You also don't spam or something like that, so yeah, it's all good, you are too hard on yourself.