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alice_0927

alice_0927

I'm sorry, but I can't stay
Feb 17, 2023
11
Whatever your decision is, I hope you will be in peace ❤️
 
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CTB Fella

CTB Fella

Experienced
Dec 15, 2022
268
Why no water? Might be difficult to swallow all of it in a few seconds, wouldn't it?
Water accentuates the horrible taste of the pills, thus leading to vomiting.

Trust me, I used to make that mistake when I first started doing this.

Use a flavoured juice, not carbonated as this will bloat you and make it difficult to get the tablets down.

I am an expert at overdosing. I know, I know, it's a paradox ... how comes I'm still here, right? Well, I was clinically dead on two separate occasions last year, was found choking on the second one, and was basically a goner. I was found, CPR, life support, and being treated for pneumonia as some of the fluid had gone back into my lungs.

If I hadn't been found, I'd be free, now.

The excitement is starting to build, now.

This is how it happens.

Giving myself today to enjoy my new computer, and to have a bit of a fast will do me good.

Then, tomorrow, I'll be at peace to do what I have to do.

Looking forward to it, now.
 
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LunaXCBN

LunaXCBN

The Best Thing (That Never Happened)
Feb 6, 2023
119
See you around, friend. Hope it works out.
 
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ThisIsLife

ThisIsLife

Specialist
Feb 3, 2023
398
how comes I'm still here, right? Well, I was clinically dead on two separate occasions last year, was found choking on the second one, and was basically a goner. I was found, CPR, life support, and being treated for pneumonia as some of the fluid had gone back into my lungs.
God loves you.

Clinically dead, as the heart stopped beating or brain activity ?
 
CTB Fella

CTB Fella

Experienced
Dec 15, 2022
268
God loves you.

Clinically dead, as the heart stopped beating or brain activity ?
I believe my heart stopped, and I had to be brought back via CPR etc. & kept alive via life support.
 
CTB Fella

CTB Fella

Experienced
Dec 15, 2022
268
No NDE ? Just blackout and then woke up?
Nothing.

Just went. It's not like the films, where you start to blackout.

You just go.

I was brought out of a chemically induced coma in the intensive care unit, with cannulas in everywhere, mainline in my neck, tube down my throat, catheter in my dick, and hallucinating.

It was quite a thing.

Got sectioned after that one.
 
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LocalAngel

LocalAngel

Lost, wanting out.
Feb 7, 2023
214
i hope you'll be at peace, and... I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who gets genuinely excited at the idea of CTB.

If it's not your time, then that's okay too of course. If you do go, I'll see you over there soon.
 
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CTB Fella

CTB Fella

Experienced
Dec 15, 2022
268
i hope you'll be at peace, and... I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who gets genuinely excited at the idea of CTB.

If it's not your time, then that's okay too of course. If you do go, I'll see you over there soon.
I look forward to meeting you.

Free of all pain, misery, sadness and a compass which helps in no way with direction.

I will speak with you for hours/days/weeks, free of all bullshit.

You just gave me a little injection of happiness, and for that, I thank you.

Why am I not able to feel like this all the time?

This thing they call "life" is evil.
 
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iloverachel

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2024
1,218
Im so sorry you have suffered for so long and have so many failed attempts.
I hope you find the peace you deserve
 

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