Tomorrow is the day.

[Mrikaii]

I'll try to ctb with SN tomorrow.
I'll fast for 12 hours and do stan's stat dose with meto, cimetidine and metamizole (painkiller).
I'll be dissolving one tablespoon and one teaspoon of SN (should be around 20-23g, im using a measuring spoon) in 50ml of water.
Unfortunately I wont be able to relate my symptoms as I'll be resetting all of my
devices tomorrow.
I feel anxious and sad, I wish reincarnation was real so I could have another chance at life as a completely different person, but I've accepted that nothing awaits for me after death, and eternal oblivion is still infinitely better than the utter misery and loneliness that is my life.
Although I havent been here for long, I wish you all the best of luck and I hope you guys find the peace you're looking for.

 

[Sea Turtle]

Wish you the best and hope you find peace

 

[Someone123]

I'll try to ctb with SN tomorrow.
I'll fast for 12 hours and do stan's stat dose with meto, cimetidine and metamizole (painkiller).
I'll be dissolving one tablespoon and one teaspoon of SN (should be around 20-23g, im using a measuring spoon) in 50ml of water.
Unfortunately I wont be able to relate my symptoms as I'll be resetting all of my
devices tomorrow.
I feel anxious and sad, I wish reincarnation was real so I could have another chance at life as a completely different person, but I've accepted that nothing awaits for me after death, and eternal oblivion is still infinitely better than the utter misery and loneliness that is my life.
Although I havent been here for long, I wish you all the best of luck and I hope you guys find the peace you're looking for.

I wish you good luck. Based on nde's (near death experiences) I have heard about I think the soul most likely keeps living after the body dies, so you may have a chance at this, and most people are much happier in the next life. I hope you find peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I am sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I know that it can be awful living a miserable life. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[fastlife]

safe travels my friend:hart:

 

[Endtimes1]

I'll try to ctb with SN tomorrow.
I'll fast for 12 hours and do stan's stat dose with meto, cimetidine and metamizole (painkiller).
I'll be dissolving one tablespoon and one teaspoon of SN (should be around 20-23g, im using a measuring spoon) in 50ml of water.
Unfortunately I wont be able to relate my symptoms as I'll be resetting all of my
devices tomorrow.
I feel anxious and sad, I wish reincarnation was real so I could have another chance at life as a completely different person, but I've accepted that nothing awaits for me after death, and eternal oblivion is still infinitely better than the utter misery and loneliness that is my life.
Although I havent been here for long, I wish you all the best of luck and I hope you guys find the peace you're looking for.

Sure you don't want to wait for ww3, could be pretty kino?

 

[sleepyghost]

I know that loneliness can be quite devastating. This community cares about you and can be a great resource for interacting with people who can relate. If you would like to talk through some of your experiences or challenges in life, or if you just need some company, we are all here for you. Sending love and comfort your way.

 

[Niirvana]

You can count on me if you need to talk to someone to spend this day, I send you a hug

 

[_Minsk]

I hope you find peace, otherwise we're all here for you if you decide to postpone

 

[TheWood]

Whatever your final decision is, I wish you the best. Each of us deserves it

 

[Endtimes1]

Sure you don't want to wait for ww3, could be pretty kino?

I'm highly suicidal myself and the high risk for escalations in global conflicts is one thing that keeps me from CTB right now.

But if this thought was not helpful, I wish you the very best, and I am sorry for your pain.

There's never anything wrong with postpone, the chance will be there in one week or month from now. Sometimes things even get better from unforseen circumstances.

 

[Dead Meat]

Wishing you a very comfortable journey and that you have everlasting peace.

 

[deleted]

good luck man it takes a lot of courage to follow through with this until the end

 

[ocklepold]

Godspeed, I hope everything goes smoothly

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[hopelessgirl]

Godspeed

 

[Mrikaii]

Well, I ended up not having the courage to do it... I'm such a coward.
I've opened it several times yesterday and im too paranoid about it degrading, plus the fasting made me feel extremely ill and i threw up twice before i was supposed to drink the SN, so I might have to pick another method

 

[unraveling]

hmmm I think that word "coward".... it doesn't apply to suicidal people who change their minds. it's the biggest change anyone can ever make, it's understandable when people back away from the abyss when they're right at the edge. It takes a lot of courage to come back to a suicidal forum and say they didn't, actually. Plus SN does seem like a very demanding method, all the ducks have to lined up in a row. No one thinks any less of you but you know that already. Hope you're okay

 

[wCvML2]

hmmm I think that word "coward".... it doesn't apply to suicidal people who change their minds. it's the biggest change anyone can ever make, it's understandable when people back away from the abyss when they're right at the edge. It takes a lot of courage to come back to a suicidal forum and say they didn't, actually. Plus SN does seem like a very demanding method, all the ducks have to lined up in a row. No one thinks any less of you but you know that already. Hope you're okay

Completely agreed. Changing your mind about taking your own life shouldn't be regarded as cowardly.

 

[hopelessgirl]

I also backed off once :-)

 

[Chiisai]

Well, I ended up not having the courage to do it... I'm such a coward.
I've opened it several times yesterday and im too paranoid about it degrading, plus the fasting made me feel extremely ill and i threw up twice before i was supposed to drink the SN, so I might have to pick another method

Dont worry. I feel you. After many attempts, I backed out many times too because I can no longer handle more pain. Rest for a while and see what you can do with your life for now.

 

[Mrikaii]

Thank you all for your messages, I really appreciate it. I dont really know what to do now, guess i'll just wait until I have the courage to hang myself, which will be a living hell as I have nothing to distract myself from my suicidal thoughts

 

[sleepyghost]

That doesn't make you a coward, it just wasn't your bus. Be kind to yourself and make some peace with existing for now. There's always plenty of time to die, no need to rush into anything. We're all here for you and wishing we could help carry your pain alongside our own. Hoping that this world can be gentle with you as you continue to process your thoughts and feelings.